Tonight please bid me your last goodbye For I can’t stand still here no more I’m cold now, so cold and alone I want to go home I know you’ll never come back, never again See my heart shattered into pieces, hear me cry in pain
I’m tired, weak from all the hurt you put me through Your spoken love for me keeps echoing Echoing, making me insane Insane, yes, for so many unspoken reasons Reasons, your reasons you vaguely uttered
Why believing leads one to bleeding? And loving so much means leaving the other in the end? Why trusting ends up to deceiving? Everything is like whirlwind in my head I’m going round and round in circles I Actually don’t understand
We now live under separate skies You’re starting to live your life I’m struggling to hold on to mine With silent tears, I let go of you Let go of everything that’s holding me back to move on
My dreams forever will be kept For it is only with you I felt everything My tears would never fall again For it is only with you I could pour myself out So now I hide myself - I don’t want to get hurt again
Thank you for loving and hurting me I could never hate you For my love could see deeper beyond You thought the limits of my understanding Go now, just go and never look back For all you can see is still the same one Who made you her everything... Follow the road you’ve been longing to conquer And when you get there please…. ….never look back again... For if you do All you'll find is a river of tears and dark clouds of despair.
A stationary sense ... as, I suppose, I shall have, till my single body grows Inaccurate, tired; Then I shall start to feel the backward pull Take over, sickening and masterful— Some say, desired.
And this must be the prime of life ... I blink, As if at pain; for it is pain, to think This pantomime Of compensating act and counter-act, Defeat and counterfeit, makes up, in fact, My ablest time.
Love not too much. But how, When thou hast made me such, And dost thy gifts bestow, How can I love too much? Though I must fear to lose, And drown my joy in care, With all its thorns I choose The path of love and prayer.
Though thou, I know not why, Didst kill my childish trust, That breach with toil did I Repair, because I must: And spite of frighting schemes, With which the fiends of Hell Blaspheme thee in my dreams, So far I have hoped well.
But what the heavenly key, What marvel in me wrought Shall quite exculpate thee, I have no shadow of thought. What am I that complain? The love, from which began My question sad and vain, Justifies thee to man.
I love you for dark reasons Things you'd never really understand Tarnished marks upon my soul Hidden secrets locked away Where my light was overcome Darkness washed over it all Brittle stregnth left behind Courage is just a front While the timid me remains
Then you ask, How, for dark reasons, do I love you?
Because you are my light Against all things dark The key to unlock my secrets And set inner deamons free An acceptance of me and My faulty soul You find beauty in my flaws And stregnth not to hold me up But to stand by me instead
To my dark reasons you are light. You are my balance. For that, I love you.
Now when alone my inclination’s split For in each ear a daemon tortures me One speaks temptations and the opposite Denounces those acts of passivity
The first daemon, he being ever cruel Recalls my love for me in full detail Those green eyes remembered melt my cool The flame shows cold reason to be too frail
The second beast, he being of the forms Knows nothing of that which he stands against His words though they be fine and well adorned Against her eyes are lost without substance
And with the thought of green that ear goes deaf Without my mind my heart is all that’s left
I wrote this sonnet a while back shortly after I lost my ex. It is designed to express the conflicting feelings that I had. Each part is symbolic of an emotional and mental battle. The daemon is a mythical creature which would bring messages from the gods and whisper them in one's ear. I'll leave the other parts to be understood by the reader.
Time the great healer comes to ease my pain Touching my wounds and taking them away What once was broken becomes whole again Memories diminish and become grey
I feel lighter losing what weight is there Knowing this mending is the way of things Feelings don’t show, I no longer despair Accepting and losing the last of the sting
My mind still wonders at how it can be That with my oaths I remain alive Never shaking my given loyalty But in some way inside the cause can die
And all around the world’s a lot brighter Pity now I’m twenty-one grams lighter.
This is my original work. It may appear to be a sonnet of healing but if you understand the final two lines then you will understand the whole meaning.
I've got just one thing to say I've been down this road before, And if you don't treat me right, I'll walk right out the door. I've been beaten down, I've been abused, I've seen it all ... And not just on the news.
(CHORUS)
And I'll walk away, I'll walk away, If you try to hurt me, I'll walk away. I want a lover, I want a friend, But I won't do whatever It takes to hold unto the end, and I'll walk away, I'll walk away, If you try to hurt me, I'll walk away.
(VERSE TWO)
This little bird Still has her wings, This little girl Still hums and sings. Didn't want to be strong, But life gave me no choice, Didn't want to speak out loud, But God gave me a voice.
(CHORUS)
And I'll walk away, I'll walk away, If you try to hurt me, I'll walk away. I want a lover, I want a friend, But I won't do whatever It takes to hold unto the end, and I'll walk away, I'll walk away, If you try to hurt me, I'll walk away.
(VERSE THREE)
So, if you want to be there, To love and understand, If you want to stay the course, To stand up and be a man, If you want to stick around For the next 100 years, If you want to hold me tight, And listen to my fears ....
I'll never leave, I'll never leave, If you don't try to hurt me, I'll never leave.
But if you try to hurt me, I'll walk away, If you try to hurt me, I'll walk away.
Take a walk on what you think is the carpet... wipe your feet, grind in the dirt. Broken glass lays shattered in the cracks. Try to clean but only hurts.
Salt on a fresh cut. If its not fresh you draw the blade and make it bleed once again.
Heart breaker...truth betrayer. Dream slayer. All that is and ever was kicked to the pit once again.
Your eyes blinded by your spite, what you think you see is wrong. Cold and empty shell is all you ever are.
Promises lay dying, you turn away when your girl is crying. But she wont be your girl ever anymore.
You took her deepest fears and used them as a weapon. Used your words and turned them into knives. Promised youd never hurt her. But it didnt take your fists to put her through a wall.
Still for some reason she lingers. Hiding in the night while she cries. Wishing to give her child more than she had to give her something she always dreamed of Hoping you'll step up and learn to be a man.
Take a step... just one more. Just get moving one foot out the door. But the seed of doubts been planted. You're unsure of the life that lies ahead.
Breath in the air...know that truth is out there somewhere a dream thats not forgotten anymore. Theres better than this can you do it on your own? Is there someone out there waiting to see your smile?
Longer
