no reason to look forward badperson_failure: theres no reason to look forward
no reason to live
everything, consolation, comfort, is just temporary
i have no lust for life
i would chnage my whole freaking being to have been able to work with him because im a failure of existence
at the end of it's a wonderful life they say its your friends that make u rich
life is meaningless and i want to die and start over from age 14 when i started going to sh*t
can't i just loop on my childhood for the rest of my life
superstar x has moved on and will be so much happier without me
i abhor my meaningless existence
Re:no reason to look forward jen: lifecanbebeautiful~
I am so sorry that you are feeling so badly today. This is such a roller coaster and the lows can be pretty devastating, I know.
But, hang in there and there are reasons to look forward, it's sometimes hard to see them when things look so bleak.
You are not a failure. Your life is not meaningless. I wish I could say something to make it better, but all I can offer is a big hug and say that this too shall pass.
mtmo/scs
Re:no reason to look forward Sittingbear: hahahaha
is your name "Life can be beautiful?" or is it truly
"Life is beautiful?"
From your missive, I know that you understand fully that life is beautiful...and sure at this small moment in your long life you will continue to walk past this heavy time, and keep walking, fore ahead is your lust for life and purpose will be there soon.....you have reached an obstacle..yet your not alone in facing it...coming here this day, you have done an incredible thing...you have shared your obstacle with all of us..and we support you on your happy times as well as your times of trying to figure out this part of your life puzzle.
theres no reason to look forward
no reason to live
everything is just temporary
i have no lust for life
there is a path to walk , only forward is its direction.
You have purpose to be alive
All life is temporary..yes..and so is this tough time, only another temporary moment.
The lust is lessen only to be filled with the zest for life...
sittingbear
Re:no reason to look forward badperson_failure: thanks to those who responded for your kind words
it's very generous of you
its just that when you feel like a failure in love, friendship or partner, and thus, life, and you hate your character and there's no motivation to move forward...all i can do is think about how my life is just being wasted away and how i am just sitting here with my wallowing and doing nothing
i know that everything is within my control and i am responsible for my mental state, whatever i believe will be true....so that scares me bc i just think negative thoughts
i know everything that needs to be done but im not doing it....i have no steady source of happiness to motivate me.....i was barely able to handle life with the x but the security there was motivating me
all i want to do is live my life in a wholesome movie....like 'little women' or 'it's a wonderful life' or 'anne of green gables'....ive realized that all my movie watching and lack of socialization has left me messed up in life as far as dealing with the best reality has dealt me
Re:no reason to look forward Sittingbear: point to my life is happiness.
Try this out for a week and tell me what , and how you are feeling...yet it won't work if you don't work it...
Take postem notes and write down all the wonderful things about yourself..fill up the whole package of postem notes...
Some things that you can write are...
"I am a beautiful human.
I am awesome
I am a caring sharing lovable person
I am intelligent and getting more so as time moves me on
I am the best I am and if you don't like it..go suck an egg..lol..
etc...etc...
this may require some research...and hunting..I went to a small bookstore and got me about a dozen books on positive affirmations and sayings, quotes..
by the way there is a section on the topics listing,,,called
SONGS QUOTES SAYINGS
if you scroll down you will ffind some awesome quotes and postive sharings started by a memeber named DOWN2BASICS...I think there is about 100 pages of positive , funny quotes that you can use...this will definitely save you alot of money..
now that you have the postem notes completed..I want you to stick them everywhere in your house..apt,.. your living space...on the walls, on pictures, in the bathroom, on doors, windows. everywhere that your eyes and being frequent.....not on the dog though cause it won't stick...I tried to put one on my cat and dog...it doesn't stick well, cause they don't want to be wallking advertisements of my esteem building experimental project.
hehee
The second part of this and last part...is everytime you face a reflection of yourself , either by a mirror, or window (store) , stop and say to yourself a positive thing..and you gotta beleive it, when you say it..look into your eyes and say it in your mind 4 times....
then if you are in private...say it aloud...
doing this exercise is going to take time to feel and truly going to give you your sense of self back, alot faster...
email me when you get it happening...
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