Tough day yesterday Daveinfla: Well I had my counseling session last night and I usually feel pretty good when I get out of there but last night was different. I am 1 week into a no contact situation we agreed on which will end this Sunday. Lat night I talked about what might happen on Sunday. I don't know if I want to continue dating her, I am not ready for her to move back in since she stays 3 weeks and then bolts again. By the way her apointment with the counselor was directly after mine (I snuck out the back door). Anyway, I got home and she had been by the house and she picked up her cell phone bill that is due next month. That really sent me into a tailspin. Now all I can think about is she's comfortable without me and plans on staying in her apartment for a while. Sometimes it just makes me feel better to type these things out and hear what all of you wonderful people have to say. I appreciate all of you and am so glad I found this site.
Re:Tough day yesterday soTiredOfHurting: Sorry to hear that you had a bad day, but it could be worse. For me this whole week has been kinda hel!ish. My STBXW is just going insane, since sunday she has completely shattered her 'we only talk about the baby rule', the closer it gets to my moving the more surreal that it gets, every bloody day has been more and more contact on her part. 9 days and I leave the rabbit hole, I take the blue pill. So just remember, it could be worse.
Re:Tough day yesterday AmyMarie1972: Hi,
From your post I would guess that you are at a point where you are not sure whether you want her back or not. You have said on the first part that you don't but then on the last part that it looks as though she is comfotable without you which I guess worries you.
This is totally understandable because I think that everyone gets to a conflict stage between their heart and their head.
You still love her but your head is telling you that you have got to protect yourself because she could easily walk out on you again if you let her back in.
Hate to say this but seldomly is the heart right. I have just come to that realisation myself.
What would you like to happen on Sunday? Would you want her to say that she wants to try again or do you want her to say that she is ok as she is for the time being?
Try to focus on other things, Sunday is not too far away now and you have already made it this far. You have done really great and have shown that you have a true strength of character.
Good luck
Amy
Re:Tough day yesterday Daveinfla: SoTired you are right things could be worse, hang in there man they will get better for you. Amy thanks for the encouraging words. You are right I'm not sure what I want at this point I keep running the possible scenarios through my head and figure out what I should do. IT SUCKS! Shortly after I made this post she called and left a voice mail message about 5 minutes long about nothing. If we continue to date I don't know how I will ever let her back in without thinking "when is she going to bolt"?
