Re:Can't think, can't feel....... Kea: Thankyou Justmenow :)
I knew something was not quite right for the final 6 months before he left (he went to his parent's place). I tried to talk to him about it .......in hindsight I think he had already made up his mind, needless to say he was unwilling to talk to me. He kept saying nothing was wrong. I trusted him, I trusted us......we'd been through worse. Our son is autistic.
Speaking of my angels :D our daughter was 8 on Saturday and our son is 5.
The kids have been handling things ok. My son regressed for the first month.....but now has started to jump ahead in leaps and bounds. His improvement has been incredible. His speech has improved, he doesn't withdraw as much (his Autism is mid range - he's not rainman but does attend a special education unit a couple of days a week).
I asked God for help tonight and look where I ended up ;D.
They said that during divorce, divorce strips you down to nothing (emotionally), to see what you're made of. From there, God helps to build you back up, stronger, and without all the extra baggage attached.
Your support group sound really cool. Sounds like emotional drain cleaner to me ;D
I know in my heart I will make this. I know I will get better, I will heal. I want to face this and get on with my life. I don't want to face this. I want this to be over. I don't want us to be over. UGGHHHH I am going insane!
I will survive this. I will learn from this. I will be a better person. I will be a better Mother.
Kea
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... JASPER: "know in my heart I will make this. I know I will get better, I will heal. I want to face this and get on with my life. I don't want to face this. I want this to be over. I don't want us to be over. UGGHHHH I am going insane"
As I said before you came to the right place! ;)
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... Adam: Hang in there Kea - Because it's about all we can do.
We gotta believe that This Too Will Pass - right?
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... Kea: Right! :)
It's late in my part of the world and I'm off to bed.
Thankyou all for being here :)
Kea
Re:Can't think, can't feel....... Cyn: First of all Kea, welcome to our little plae. We all know what you are going through, but some of us are in different stages of the process. My s2bx left me in June, out of the blue. He went away to school for his military job and had a nervious breakdown which led him to believe he no longer loved me and couldn't possibly want to stay married. I won't lie to you , it hurts like hell. There are some days I can't get out of bed, my poor son has learned to cook for himself. It has even gotten to the point where my son will say to his father, OK you can talk to mommy but don't make her cry today. Poor little thing, he wants so much to protect me.
Anyway enough about me, the only advice I have for you is us. Come here often, talk as much as you want and listen to what everyone has to say. You can acquire some great friendships here that will see you through even the darkest days.
