why do i want to feel bad... tigger: why is it that, just when i feel i had a good day that i sabotage it by thinking of her again even though i know i could stop it if i tried. i'm hurting and all i want is for that pain to go, but when i find my self with a comfortable few hours or days i suddenly want to think and feel rotten again..... have i become dependant on that pain just to keep myself feeling alive.... can someone help
Re:why do i want to feel bad... sacoderisa: i kinda know what you mean, because i go tru the same thing......two weekends ago, i went to play ball, went later to the club, after that i helped my cousin promote for his parties, and I talked to a few girls........well, yeah,all the way home and b4 sleeping i had to think of her........well, trust me, is not like you can stop it, you can't. Is hard, i wish we could just turn a switch and let go. But well, gotta move on, that's the only solution.
Re:why do i want to feel bad... lily: Tigger,
I think the reason you (want to) keep thinking of her because it's the only link to her you have right now. If you forget to think about her and feel that sadness for any stretch of time, it will mean you really are moving on and it really is over.
This has been top of my own mind lately...people say "move on," and I say, "but I don't want to move on."
As long as I'm wallowing in anguish, the clock stays stuck on the first day we broke up, frozen in time.
On the other hand, I don't think we should push ourselves to move on, either. Grief is a complex process and maybe it's best to feel the pain and have those memories when they arise. Let life guide you through, don't fight it.
