UGHHH a hard day ahead...it's our anniversary twobeautifulkids: So today's our 13th anniversary. Gee, isn't that exciting. How am I supposed to react to a day like this only 2 weeks after he leaves? I'm so glad my brother is coming to visit today to keep my mind off of things. My husband had mentioned stopping by today and I told him no, that I didn't want to see him today. It took him a minute but then he did one of those "ooops, I forgot" kinda things and said he understood. I take the first full song of the day as my theme song for the day and today it was "Harden My Heart"
Cryin' on the corner, waitin' in the rain
I swear I'll never, ever wait again
You gave me your word..but words for you are lies
Darlin' in my wildest dreams, I never thought I'd go
But it's time to let you know....oh...
Chorus:
I'm gonna harden my heart
I'm gonna swallow my tears
I'm gonna turn...and...leave you here.....
All of my life I've been waitin' in the rain
I've been waiting for a feeling...that never, ever came
It feels so close, but always disappears....
Darlin', in your wildest dreams, you never had a clue...
But it's time you got the news......oooo....
Repeat Chorus
I'm gonna harden my heart
I'm gonna swallow my tears
I'm gonna harden my heart
I'm gonna swallow my tears
Harden my heart...harden my heart...
swallow my tears
I'm gonna harden my heart...
It's going to be a hard day. I won't lie and say that I don't want him to come back. Today would be a perfect day for him to say he was wrong. I know it's not going to happen, but I can't help but still want it to. I'm not to the true point yet that I can say I don't want him back. I'm sure that it will come. It's days like today and other holidays and special events that I am sure are going to be super hard to get used to...especially if he has the kids for one of those days. Today I'm feeling sorry for myself again. I'm feeling very weak. :-\
Re:UGHHH a hard day ahead...it's our anniversary AmyMarie1972: Hi,
You hang in there. You're not weak it would have been so easy for you to let him come by today but you didn't.
Mine left 2 days before Valentines day. I had bought him all the mushy things that you usually buy and everything. Threw them in the trash eventually but I hated that day and really thought that I wouldn't get through it. Was with mine for 13 years must be something about the number!!!
You sound like a strong woman to me. After 2 weeks of the ex going not so sure that i would have been strong enough to have told him not to come around.
Now though I would cheerfully tell him to put his head in a mincer and turn it on. Amazing what time can do!!!!
Everyone here will keep your mind off of it. Have a look at the shaving post that will take about an hour to read through and will have you laughing along the way.
Take care of yourself
Amy
