Re:is this thing on? klund: I feel since this has happened, there has been a huge cloud cleared from my head. Who the hell did I think I was? If nothing comes out of this, I am learning that I can not go through life treating anyone like this again. I have faith I have hope I have love. My therapist has been married 20 years, and while engaged her husband had an affair. She said in time it made there relationship stronger. I dont think I would be so upset if I didnt love her.
Re:is this thing on? lewis0416: Dear Joe,
I am really ticked off angry angry, You will never see this but that’s okay. I can’t see straight because I have so much pent up angry from all of the years of agony that I have suffered. UNHEALTHY FOR YOU AM I? What about me? I put up with so much bs I don’t know where to begin. You are a pathological liar and will always be a liar. You are a manipulator, I let you get inside my head and brainwash me to think like u. U are twisted, and your world is twisted. How can u buy things for some girl when u don’t even provide for your own children? U are buying her kids things a well. How about taking care of your own first? What really ticks me off is that u act like u were the one fed up. I was fed up for years. I just dealt with it because I thought I was stuck. I had four kids with you. You made me walk in the rain when I was 9 months pregnant and you were never supportive. You were never there for me. The ironic thing is all I asked for was that u called me to say hi during the day, not to check up on u, u could not do that? But this girl walks into your life and your ear is glued to your cell phone like there was no tomorrow. I have played out the last day in my head over and over. And that week we were separated. The things u said disgust me. U could have said u were cheating, U could have saved us all of the months of fighting. Do u think I would have fought u. I would have just let it go. I have been seeing people on the side throughout our whole relationship together so don’t think u fooled anyone. I can’t stand your pompous ass. You jerk. All u can do is say your sorry. U were nothing but a loser. I could have had any guy I wanted and the life that I sacrificed for u. I should have been done with school by now. I just consider u a distraction. A big long ugly distraction in my life. If I had followed my heart, I would not be here now. I keep thinking where I would be today if we were still together and that gives me relief because I would not be happy. I know that. I would be miserable waiting for your oh so valuable time. I was always waiting around for u and then when u did come around it was nothing to glorify. What did u ever do for me. So u brought me chocolate the night u screwed around and that is supposed to make me happy,. I knew what u were doing and u know that. U would have kept using me and playing me for all that u could get away with. Thanks for leaving me with three months of backlogged bills. Do u even care if your kids eat jerkoff. Jerkjerkjerkjerkjerkjerkjerkjerkjerkofofofofofofofofo. I have a way better man now. He does everything that u didn’t and never could do. What kind of man cannot change a tire or check the oil in the car. He warms my car up in the morning even when he does not have to get up . He can cook and he brings the kids things all of the time like candy and donuts and I thought you were good because u helped pay bills . That was your responsibility. Anywaze when we got marries I did not sign my liberty away. Where did I sign saying I would be a personal servant. BS. I can make it on my own. I have four kids and I am prodding along just fine. U are having all kinds of financial problems and u always will. Every time u disappear out of my life, good things start to happen to me and I feel great. I went dancing for the first time, He even took me to the Bay area the beach. It was awesome. We did more in two days than u and I did in our entire relationship together. I was awesome. When u decide to come crawling back u can forget it. I know u . When your girl dumps u because she sees how much u lied then lay in the bed that u made honey. Don’t even have the nerve to ask me to take u back. I can never look at u with love; I have locked the door and opened a new one. I will never love u again. I stopped loving u. it starts today. I will have a good life without u. This is the way it should have been. U treat people that u love bad and it will come back to u one day. I know this mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
Re:is this thing on? klund: WOW! Sorry you had to go through that. My situation isnt that deep, I wasnt cheating all along. granted I did talk to another woman for over a year, but was onlt intimate with her once. I am crawling back to her! I do not want to even look at another girl right now. The pain I have inside of me is the same pain you have within you. something was wrong with me, I had to grow up, and I am taking the steps to do so. It is so new, only 3 weeks. I have faith in God wich I never had in the past. I have faith that he brought us together, I broke us a part but with his faith, and my changes, I know we can work this out! It will take a lot of time, but what else do I have right now? Time.......... The hardest part is going home at night, and still smelling her perfume, left over articles of clothing etc. Thank God for therapy and friends. I am a good person, one who has flaws, but I am making changes to these flaws, and will continue to be the best person I can be not only to myself but to others around me. My new motto in life......Just do the right thing!
