Re:Feeling Nothing JimB: Do you really need to speak to him for any reason?
I'm betting you now understand that it wasn't a good idea to call him. I think an excellent first step towards accepting that the two of you are leading separate lives now would be to find other people to talk to when you are feeling down. The less contact you have with him, the more you'll feel like you're standing on your own two feet and following your own path.
Of course he's hostile. Of course he's continuing to push your buttons by insinuating that you were somehow in the wrong. That's just how he is. You can't save him from himself. He's clearly a very unhappy person who blames you for not making him happy. The people who are currently in his life are dealing with the same thing.
I don't see any reason to be angry with him - he rates pity, not anger. In fact, I think it's a very positive sign that you're not angry - it shows that on some level you understand that it's about him, not about you. You seem to have divested yourself of some of the nasty guilt that made you believe him when he blamed you for his own unhappiness.
Remember this conversation you had with him next time you're tempted to pick up the phone and call him. I guarantee you'd get more of the same, and you don't deserve that. Nobody does. Call Mom instead. Or a good friend. They will give you what you deserve - a sensitive ear and a forgiving heart.
Re:Feeling Nothing justmenow: Personally, I am elated that your jerk of an X is under so much pressure! Who cares what he thinks of you. It's a free country - if he doesn't like what he's done that's his problem, not yours.
I hope you're feeling better. You don't deserve that kind of abuse.
Re:Feeling Nothing hurtingverymuch: Sorry to hear that you've had a rough couple of days and that your x is such a flippin' jerk. I can't believe he had the nerve to say that "he" would never trust you again. >:( Don't let him threaten you and treat you like that. You don't deserve that. Don't make his problems yours. He made his own mess, let him deal with it.
You keep on taking care and thinking of yourself. Try not to contact him. If you're feeling sad or need to vent, come here and post or IM one of us.
I hope you're doing better. Hang in there and keep your chin up. My thoughts are with you.
Hugs
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