Re:Been a rough week part 1.... Safetykc: God, Funny you said that. I know how you feel. A good friend of mine told me today, "you sound like a guy who knows that the woman is lost to him, doesn't want to admit it to himself, but deep down knows she's gone. You're still fighting on the surface..." I went through the motions too. I know its over, but you have to fight the good fight. I don't want to look back later in life and say I wussed out. I want to say I tried and did everything I could, because the commitment we make to ourselves and each other under God, means something darn it. I have to believe that or how could I ever make that commitment again? I made a promise and held to that, honor, respect, and faithful even though she wasn't. It didn't mean throw away my vows and go back on my word, no matter what the other person has done, regardless of what she did to me. It doesn't mean I don't know its not over, but I have to hold to my promise until the divorce is final so I can hold my head up high and say I met my commitments and tried work things out even if she didn't. But, momma didn't raise no fools...I may be holding off on a lot of things until the divorce is final, but that was one of the reasons i filed for a quick one. ;) 60 days and counting. Here we go on the rollercoaster again....wheeee...I am on a high point! ;D hmmm...does that mean a low will follow? Gosh, I hope not...ugh
Re:Been a rough week part 1.... JASPER: Dont worry about the low just enjoy the high!!! ;)
Re:Been a rough week part 1.... Safetykc: I enjoyed it while it lasted! That was quick... :o No actually I am not in a low, more in a merry-go-round...and round and round...She had to get one last dig in with a smile before she left work. A question about the Dec.1st court date and she said....your push...my push. More like push my buttons. Lol...why should that upset me so much. I'm emotionally ok, its just irks me so much every time she says my push or my decision, or my rush on the divorce thing. Oh well, I guess I just need to chalk it up to the fact that this person can't accept responsibility or consequences about their own actions. I can't let her mania become my own. Everything that happened to me did happen. She caused it and the only reason she is upset is she lost control of the timing. Just needed to get that off my chest. And as a sweet lady said in an earlier post..."Do what's best for you and leave her in the dust where she belongs. Let her find comfort from her boy toy and see how far that gets her..." Thanks JMN!!!
Re:Been a rough week part 1.... justmenow: lol - ;D Tx for calling me a sweet lady...
