Why do I cry? sacoderisa: Well, i know the drill.....let her go....if she wants to talk let her call you, don't call her........try something to get your mind away from her.......crying counts?
I just had a good day of missing her....all day at work had her on my mind (actually since i remembered she said she wanted to have sex with me last week) and then It was on for the day........i had softball practice........got my head away from her for just an instant. But as soon as practice was over, BAM! she is in my head again. I can't get away from her, she says she just wants us to be friends, but she lets me kiss her and caress her anytime i feel like it.(well, when i am around her of course). I don't know, Her mouth says one thing, but her actions say a totally different thing. I don't know how much longer will I be able to stand this, I am going crazy, and just want to get away from her as fast as I can, but since i can't just walk away on my daughter, I have to see her...........and then when i do, all i can think of is kissing her.............I know that's the wrong way to do it, i know that if i want to know if she wants me i should let her be........I want peace.......I don't want more tears, I should be dry by now, everyday I cry, and it won't go away, it will never go away..........i don't even have a friend who to talk to.....a friend that will be there for me to have a shoulder to cry on..........i am alone, living at my parents house and having no privacy or room whatsoever.........I thought i felt alone when i used to live on my own, But now that I know I won't be able to date anybody anyways, where am I going to bring her? My nephew's room? My room that don't even have a door? This really sucks........I need a new job....anybody interested in hiring a electronic engineer? What am I saying, I need a life!!!!
Re:Why do I cry? mine: dont beat yourself up about this
it is natural
going through the same thing right now
and i am not sure how to deal with it myself
only thing is i dont have a child......so closure will be harder for you ....but if you know in your mind it does not work .........then ...it will come in time
Re:Why do I cry? Blueyes424: sacoderisa,
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Believe me honey, I know how you feel. I left my ex, but some of your same feelings surfaced in me as well. I know what you mean about feeling alone in a room or house full of people. I have been there, and I assure you, it does get easier!!!
If you need a shoulder to cry on, we here at ojar are all here for you!!! PM me if you feel the need. This is something you shouldn't feel you have to go through alone.
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Blueyes
