posts from past Bocephus: Has anyone ever looked up their posts from the past and just admired how far you have come? I'm truly a little embarrassed though about some of the things I posted way back when. When I read them it jsut doesn't sound like me at all. Truly sad but wow, proof that one heals...
Re:posts from past MadorSad: JR
I do it now and then the first 10 or so are just not the same person when you get up to 1000 look back aroud 500 and you will see a biger change ;D
Re:posts from past Bocephus: I'm kind of laughing right now at one of my posts...
[quote"> I can't believe it. I almost refuse to believe it. I am so torn down and broken over everything. She told me last night "I'm not coming home." How could somebody just give up everything without even trying? How could somebody just throw everything away? How could somebody just have complete disregard and apathy for somebody they shared so much time, love, fun, life with without even trying to find love again with that person? Is it so difficult to think things could not have worked? Is it not possible to find, build, or reignite love? What makes a person do this?????? I accept my faults, and I accepted everything I have contributed but I have also done everything I can to change over the last while, and the problems were not things that couldn't be easily be fixed. It's so disturbing and unmotivating. Is this what life is all about? This is a joke. This is a bad bad joke. Is this a message from God and if so what? What kind of lesson am I supposed to be learing here? This is why I don't know if I believe in god anyhow. What the hell did I do to deserve this? What did any of you do? You know what... I'm going to say this becuase I think it is ok to feel this way sometimes... I hate life. I am hating living. I am tired and unmotivated. I wish a meteor would fall on my face. I wish my car would blow up. I don't want to be happy ever again. I don't give a nuts about today, tomorrow, or the day after that. I could care less about anything ever ever ever again.[/quote">
I take it back about the meteor and my face, and I really don't want my car to blow up. As a matter of fact, I'm looking forward to tomorrow and this weekend. I have some fun plans, and Sunday I'm going to cook a nice meal for my mom. It's truly getting so much better. It's truly getting 'good' and 'great' again. I feel good about this!!! I'm going for sushi darnit!!
Re:posts from past tyrogers: OMG I was just doing that!
BBH
Re:posts from past i_sing_alone: I'm glad you're feeling better. *HUGS* :)
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