6 Months Today... LostTeacher: Don't really know if this is so much a vent or not, but today is exactly 6 months since we seperated.
it's a weird feeling. i mean, i have been feeling ok....with a few minor set backs here and there. and i am busy and having fun. in fact, i have a few social events for this weekend, including a social, a night at the bar, and a nice mother's day dinner with my extended family.
but........something just feels like it's missing. i mean, my b-day is coming up, school is coming to an end for another year, and i just feel like i won't know what to do with myself this summer. each summer before this was filled with hope, and lots of activities and packing and unpacking. now.........i don't know where it's going.
so.... i guess this is just a mini vent. i am happy but a little sad..... busy, but still thinking...... missing him....but not.........don't really know..... :-\ :'( :-\
Re:6 Months Today... gumby55555: Aww, I know exactly how you feel, LT... I think we're all haunted by those dichotomous feelings as we transition from we had to what we will have... but wouldn't it be nice if it were a little easier? To my mind, it's a good thing we're moving forward in small, oft painful, steps like this because it speaks highly of our hearts and our ability to be thinking, feeling, empathetic human beings... this, my dear, is a very good thing. So hang in there... I'm sure this summer will be full of wonderful new experiences! All the best, LT! :)
Re:6 Months Today... Dunno: Know how ya feel. We each live in our own little limbo, loving him, missing him, while hating what has happened to us. I am already worried about memorial day, wont be the cook out, friends and all this year, but should I let it be like this? Guess this is kinda my call, so I have to think there will be a good summer, sure it might, no it will be different, but it will be because I planned it. Summer ahead will be fun, you will discover things to do and all. Good luck to you and keep smiling :)
