confidence...or bs... Druid13: Ok so I don't understand it exactly either. But for some reason I feel slightly more confident this week than I have in awhile. Why? I don't know. Nothing has changed. Maybe I've adopted some new act like you don't care thing....and it probablty won't last. But all of a suddent I feel "kind of" at peace...not so anxious....and more relaxed?
Playing out tonight. Planning on tearing it up...this is the first one in awhile where I feel going into it like I got enough sleep.
anyone else ever go thru mysterious phases of confidence and lack thereof? Not a c*cky thing...I don't know
Maybe I am just friggin nuts this week.
Re:confidence...or bs... ChristyM: No, you're not nuts (well, at least as far as this subject goes; I can't speak to anything else :))
I would go through phases where I felt on top of the world and nothing could bring me down. I felt like I had finally beaten the divorce blues. Then something would hit me and I'd feel crappy again. At least each time that happened the time span was less and less as far as picking myself up, giving myself a pep talk and then moving forward again.
It's odd ... I've been divorced since 4/04 and separated since 10/03 so I'm definitely past most of the crap. However, I had a conversation with the ex the beginning of this week (which isn't unusual as we talk frequently) but something caused me to be in a funk. I hated it b/c I couldn't pin it on anything specific. Just an in general mourning of the marriage that no longer existed. It was so bad a couple of times that I cried ... and that hasn't happened for many months. I then proceeded to dream about him for several nights in a row and each dream was him telling me to move on. I woke up feeling like I was back in those first few months of the separation.
Sorry to go on a tangent there, but just wanting you to know I can relate.
Christy
Re:confidence...or bs... CPmommy: Definitely Druid. My emotions have run the gamut through this thing. Look at some of my posts from last week in the "songs" section. I was a mess!! But this week, strangely enough, I'm my old self again. Maybe even better than my old self (thanks to a host of friends here on Ojar - you know who you are!!).
You're not nuts, my friend. Just riding the rollercoaster along with the rest of us. Please do not exit the ride until it comes to a complete stop.
Re:confidence...or bs... Bocephus: Oh I think there are times when I feel less confident then others.
Druid, go with it man!! Confidence is key!! Feel good, look good!! The world is yours!
Just keep that confidence humble. That's the best show of it...
Re:confidence...or bs... jillieb44: Yeah, I go through phases. Some days I'm ultra confident and happy; others I'm more anxious and sad.
Jillie
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