Re:confidence...or bs... MadorSad: Ride it hard and put it away wet man !!!!!!! I have found I get so much done if I got the groove 8) Just go with it do not question it and it may just stay that way
MoS
Re:confidence...or bs... jimloveless: 1. numb days
2. sad days
3. happy days
4. angry days
that's kinda how my days are prioritized, though there is no logic to it what so ever. One of my best days was the same week she left. I felt awesome!
Right now i feel like any confidence I have is pretty much a front. I'm pretty good at faking it though. I'm sure as i get into shape and i move forward with my life it will come back... hopefully with a vengeance.
I wanna be able to say "look what i lived through. I'm still standing, bro! What's next?"
Re:confidence...or bs... Druid13: I guess part of what is setting me off is ....I heard my ex wife's voice and talked with her very shortly the other night. My marriage's end is probably as f*cked up as they come....I don't know of anyone else ( who is divorced) who hung in there for three years only to have it all "taken away" ( house,dog,not seeing my daughter daily,lifestyle ... everything) and then your ex runs off and remarries in three months of that?!?!( in Vegas no less) ....anyway some of you may know this has caused me to...not talk with her...and she does not talk to me. Toward the end she kept telling me she still cared about me ( has made no attempt I am aware of to even see how I am doing)...
The other night I felt confident enough...to just think about talking in a "how are you?" way...but deicded against it...and kept it to talk about our daughter. The feeling I had that I felt ready to just chat....made me think I have moved on finally. Or I just plain don't give a s*it anymore...I mean I can't let what happened as awful , humiliating, hurtful etc...as it was ruin the rest of my life...plus when I was hainging out with my daughter ...we talked...about alot of stuff her school her boyfrined ( not a serious one)...her German classes her English classes...what it was like for me as a kid...all kinds of things......it gave me pride to be that girl's father...she is such a wonderful kid. And I am at least half of why she is such a great person even if things did not work out with her Mother and I.
So...to heck with it for now anyway I am gonna try and ride this wave ...and hopefully someday I am going to be a happy guy again...not there yet but at least now today I can feel some hope! And that is better than I have felt for a long long time folks I am figuring out life is tough and there is not always going to be a someone to lean on...but you can build up yourself too...be there for yourself man......why do I want to cry all of sudden admitting this...heck I don't know?
Re:confidence...or bs... Druid13: sorry for the profanity is the last post folks...but I am feeling it today ;)
Re:confidence...or bs... MadorSad: Pride oh man I like that word and you got every right to feel it man good on you
MoS
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