Thinking...... Dunno: Hi all!! I am gonna TRY and say how I am feelign but I am not yet sure? It will be 11 weeks tomorrow, I keep thinking how close to three months :( I haven't heard from him in any way since Apeil 15th when he was here. Do I miss him still? Think of him? Love him? Yes to all, but I am seeing a new man, it's like I never knew tha man I am married to and I damn sure don't like him. He has become heartless, cruel, and uncaring, my gf seen him in a grocery store acting a fool. I am sure it was youth he was seeking, apparently he has it. My wish now? It is that I always have the strength within me to NOT want him back. I realize I am weak, I know I still love him, but the hurt I have been experiencing since he left? I know I NEVER want to go through this again and I pray it's over soon. I feel I am way better than I was and much of the thanks I owe to this site, just for listening to me. Being able to "vent" has been good for me. My best goes to you all and to those who have made it past "I can't make it" well congrats! It can be done. I smile when I read the posts about pre posts, hoping I too will one day be one of them :) And to the newbies? This is the best place to share. Huggz
