Retrace the years mydarkdreams: I am not sure how to act
Not sure how I should feel
In so many ways
it all seems so unreal
You are seeing someone else
I wonder where my place has gone
I wonder where I now fit
I wonder why and where this all went wrong
Back into my familiar darkness
No where else for me to turn
None of this is meant for me
Someday I will learn
Change is difficult and unknown
It is much easier for you to adapt
It is easy for you to move beyond me
My fragile heart now bleeding and wrapped
I do my best to conceal my wounds
Sometimes the pain seeps through
Sometimes I am not as strong as I want to be
In this heartache I am much weaker too.
You tell me how you are so happy now
Things for you begin to fall into place
You see happiness in the eyes of another
You feel joy in someone elses embrace
You want me to be happy for you
The pictures go through my mind
Yet I remember how I feel
and I cannot be that blind
Blind to the truth that I feel
I feel hurt, betrayed, unloved and unwanted
None of this matters at all because I know
this situation cannot be daunted
I don't want to feel anything anymore
I don't want to hurt and don't want to cry
I want to turn it all off and be numb
I want it all to just go away, yet I can't live that lie
The lie of pretending you really loved me
I know I have been easily replaced
Agonizing over it all in my head
I want nothing more than to let it be erased
A basket case of emotion
A neverending bucket of tears
I am in familiar territory now
Another step retracing my years...
Re:Retrace the years jimloveless: even the numbness can start to hurt after a while.
thanks for sharing, and keep on posting.
