the OW again....sigh.... LostTeacher: nothing big....just bothering me....
my sister was out shopping with her boyfriend this weekend, when they came upon my stbxh walking through the store, holding hands with another woman. (side bar.....he hated holding hands with me....pulled away almost every time).
it was a real shock to my sister, who has never seen him with someone else, other than me (as we have been together since our early teens). also, the fact that we are not even divorced yet, and that we just signed our seperation papers last week.
she said that they got out of their really quickly, and that the OW turned about 5 shades of red when my sister thought she knew who she was.
just was a bit of a kicker, because they day they were seen was my b-day.... an interesting day to go public with your new love.
sigh..............just a bit down about that...... :-\ :'(
Re:the OW again....sigh.... Cizzler: Happy Belated Birthday! Maybe just look on this as your year...full of possibility!
Re:the OW again....sigh.... bill23: Aww, I'm sorry, LT... but yeah, that's a bit of a downer when you first find out about that. I just got through it by thinking that I need to ride through these down moments/days until I'm at the point where I won't even think of her (the indifference stage); I see it coming in the future and so I tell myself that six months from now, I'll be there and all I need to do is keep on trucking through the next six months as I did the previous few months. It seemed horrible when I was in it but, slowly, it's gotten less and less horrible... downright bearable... and soon, it'll be nothing other than a memory which I'll be more than happy to let go of...
Re:the OW again....sigh.... LostTeacher: that's what i am hoping.....
i am feeling weird about it. i am upset, but in a different way. i feel a little more let down then sad. i just feel like if he is able to be with someone else, why wasn't he able to be with me? what was terrible about me that he couldn't be with me anymore, after being best friends and lovers for so long?
i hate playing this "what if" game....it gets me nowhere, makes me feel no better, yet i keep playing it with myself. i don't know what to do to make myself happy again.
i mean, i had a great weekend....danced, spent time with good friends, even got kissed by a guy! but it was sort of taken down a peg after hearing of him with her. but really....i was out having my own good time....why am i letting this bother me so much?
i hate missing someone that doesn't care. :'(
