i wish i could send BabygirlM: i will hold from sending this, i really need to keep the no contact rule
why is it so impossible for you to aplogize, to take responsibilty. i wish for one second i could get inside your head to see whats really inside you. i know now that i never will be able to that, i accept that. what i dont accept is your mind games. youve played with me so much that i dont even know how to let people in without thinking they are decieving me or trying to pull one on me. youve damaged me...are you happy?
you asked me last weekend to tell you why i "thought" we were meant to be together....even asked me to go first....so i will, i will swollow my pride yet again and let you win....but in the end i will win, because i can feel and i can love and i will share that with the person i am meant to be with someday.
1. number one reason.....i loved you unconditionally....through all youve put me through, i loved you and loved you no matter what....did everything i could to make you happy.
2. i thought we usually get along very well (besides the times of tension when you....well i wont go into that again but when you do what you do) we had fun...we had passion...but that could be all in my mind
3. we had a connection you and me....but maybe that was all in my head as well...
4. i thought you loved me....obviously again....i was wrong...
5 we kept coming back to each other....there had to be a reason....but again...maybe for you i dont want to know what that reason was
in conclusion to this little 'are we meant for each other' experiment i guess my only reason was that i loved you because the rest could have been my imagination....but i dont know what your reasons were that you were going to tell me since you looked me straight in the eye and said you had no feelings for me. maybe you were going to tell me more lies....were they all lies just because you were lonely and needed sex? im not saying that to be condesending to you, but really was that the reason?
i swore to myself i would never contact you again....but i am going out of my mind because again for the millionth time in our relationship i have no answers. i have to live with forever wonderin why. and you never telling me what this stemmed from, why this keeps happening....what i did to you to ever deserve such hatred.
do i hate you? i dont know....i dont think im able to hate anyone really...i give people chance after chance to find the good in them....but that is MY flaw. some people will just never show you that....and i will now accept that from you. i will forgive all youve done, but believe me, i will never forget.
Re:i wish i could send indianadivorcedmom: wow,, I need to send that one to my ex. it hits on so many things that I wanted to say to him but just could not do it.
Re:i wish i could send BabygirlM: i sent this....i feel so stupid...i will feel even worse when he either a. doesnt reply or b. replys by just belittling and saying more hurful things to me.
this is MY fault....why do i do this to myself!!!!!!! >:(
Re:i wish i could send Chelle30: It took a lot of guts sending this letter to him, but good for you. Who knows if he will learn from it? I wish I could copy and send it to mine. You made me cry.
Chelle
Re:i wish i could send blondi: GOOD ON YOU, i sent a letter to my ex, due to i couldn't face him again, and it really hit a nerve with him, made his eyes opened so to speak, and now i still regret staying with him to hurt me the way he did, but sending to letter gave me a bit of power to, once i got to speak my mind to him, and he couldn't rip me down he had to accepted it. Don't feel ashamed feel empowered
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