I HATE MYSELF!! stupify: i just really hate myself right now.. i have such a hard time dealing with hormones and stuff... i have turned into this needy, pissy, moody person!! i cant handle it anymore, and i know my H cant handle it either.... he yelled at me today for calling him at work.. but i cant help it. that is where the needy part comes in. i constantly need afirmation from him, that yes he loves me.. and then i can be this horrible b*tch.. i get irrational and upset over silly things... but i feel like i cant help that either.. i have tried to explain it to my husband, but i really feel like he thinks i am using this pregnancy as an excuse.. i went to his work the other day and one of the girls looked at me and said 'N you really cant blame your pregnancy for evrything' i was so upset by this, because i can imagine that J is at work saying 'yeah she is so crazy, and such a b*tch and she trys to explain it all away and blame it on the pregnancy'
ughhhh!! i hate myself!!
Re:I HATE MYSELF!! jillieb44: Welcome to the wonderful world of hormones. As much as you hate to hear it, it's likely that is the cause of your moods. I had issues (mood and hot flashes) until I finally weaned my son.
Take care of yourself, forgive yourself, and try not to let it get to you. I used to feel the same way, until the hormones got the best of me, too.
Jillie
Re:I HATE MYSELF!! PiscesGoddess: Oh my sweet JC-
I cant say it any better than Crushed did (that was beautiful :)) I will just add my 2 cents.. Don't hate yourself and allow yourself the ability to remember that your mind and body are not your own right now..You have a gazillion hormones running through your body..your dealing with a man who doesnt quite understand it..Of course you are going to be needy! I went through the exact same thing when I was pregnant..Also pay attention to how you are feeling..just like there is post partum depression there is something called ante-natal depression and it has only recently come to light that not all that pregnant women go through is "just hormones" ( Man I hate that phrase >:() You have a lot on your plate ..Try to take care of yourself the best you can..Im sorry your H isnt more understanding..that may just take some time honey. Talk to your friends here..join a pregnancy support group (babycenter is great!) and focus on YOU and that baby. As for thinking that he is going to work b!tchin about you.. maybe he is ..maybe he isnt..sometimes when we try to get up in their heads it makes things 1000X worse..we can never really know what anyone else is thinking..ya know? Hang in there sweetie.. Believe me I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS!! I am sending you the biggest hugs I have and know that you can talk to me anytime.
HUGS!!!
Pisces Goddess
Re:I HATE MYSELF!! stupify: thanks you guys... it does help to hear that!! i guess i should at least be thankfull that this time is way better than the first... my first pregnancy, i should have been committed or something ::)
Re:I HATE MYSELF!! down2basics: Well said my Beautiful Goddess! As always, you know just what to say and when!
JC-we're here with ya - every step of the way - don't ever forget that!
d2b
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