Re:did something stupid HOPE2STAY: it's okay to still want him, to still love him. your inability to completely shut your emotions off is a testament to the fact that you put your all into the relationship.
i think you should have a lot of good cries, as finding out you have a lousy partner is a devastating thing, indeed. i mean hey, he really hurt you.
just know that you will get over it, and be stronger in time. and that it's okay to wish it hadn't worked out this way. what's not okay is to let him control the direction of the relationship.
Re:did something stupid BabygirlM: oh wowee.....
i feel like i am literally in your position. when will we wake up and see the light....our exs are so bad for us!!!! mine hurt me....no IS still hurting me as we speak. and i just take it. ((((hugs)))) hang in there hunny. if you need anyone to talk to i am here.
Re:did something stupid wowee: Thank you all for your responses. I made it through today when he called just trying to be very "business like" but I know there is still an e-mail I sent on Friday to his work & he will get it tomorrow morning. I am so scared he will respond in a way that will hurt me, or what is worse, he won't respond at all & leave me hanging. I wish I didn't still NEED some sort of contact with him. I can try to blame it on the fact that we have kids & we HAVE to stay in contact, but the truth is, as aweful as he was & as aweful as he has made me feel about myself & truley hate myself for being so stupid I know the truth is I am still attached to him in some sick way. Is it really him controlling me, or me still holding onto him?
Re:did something stupid ChiefWiggum: Wowee:
I know a sure-fire way to take the control away from him right now:
Go have fun. Do something that puts a smile on your face. Skydiving/batting-cages/drinking&smoking/whatever.
CW
