Re:Really want to call... jt5639: Thank you, thank you, thank you everyone. I did not call - I will not call him.
This is so so sad though. Never in a million years did I think I would be at this place where...where what? Where talking to this man I held so dear to my heart, this best friend I ever had, this soul mate - where talking to him only hurts, only cuts me deep. Never did I think I would not want him in my life. Never.
I am so ready for truly happy days. I so hope they are not far off. I am grieving so heavily over this man...I don't want to cry for him anymore. :'( :'( :'(
Re:Really want to call... ChiefWiggum: jt,
I'm proud of you for not calling. You put a smile on my face :)
CW
Re:Really want to call... Samarra: Yeah...good for you JT...knew you could do it.
We're all stronger than we think.
Anytime you need us to stop you...we'll be here!
Re:Really want to call... scrdbyelmo: ok...i didnt read every post after your initial post but here's my two cents....i would call and get hurt and that gave me fuel to get through the next one maybe two times i wanted to call him never failed and i also established a list of friends (mentally) that i would go through and it usually happened that by the time i got about 2-3 down the list i didn't want to call him anymore...you're an adult though and if you cant handle it anymore call you might just get hurt enough by the call that next time you can hold out!!!
