Re:changing browngreen: Amy--
Thank you!
LOL
(There's that "thank" word again!)
Borrow away. But only if I can read it!
BG/ag
Re:changing jillieb44: Change is good. Real good. Things keep falling into place, as they should.
Now if only I could find a fun man to hang with, it'd be great. Not having much luck in that department, LOL
Jillie
Re:changing browngreen: Jillie--
That is so inspiring-- that things are falling into place.
It's been so long since I've had that feeling.
That is exactly what I'm striving for-- to attain that, and live there for as long as I can.
I've had it before, for long periods of time so I know it can happen!
I went to the bank today expecting bad news, but didn't get it-- got good news instead, which made me want to go out and buy myself something. So I bought a new watch-- less heavy, easy big buttons for running and timing.... plastic band that won't get wet. ALso, it's so nice to have something, some every day thing, be new.
I went to the hospital today to volunteer and was busy, and when I was asked to punch holes in about 100 reams of paper, I almost rejected the project, but then somehow, I found the grace to do the job with dignity and pride, and do it well.
While there, I saw one of my favorite patients from work, and saw a coworker whom I have several random things in common with. He told me about the drive in movie theater and how cheap it is. I think I'll go sometime when my H is visiting. Never been to a drive in movie with him! Haven't been to one period since I was 7.
I went to the library today to use a computer and found a parking spot in the shade! The only one, and it was free!
I went to the gym to pay for my locker rental and although I couldn't take care of that right then and there, I went to the locker and took a few things out that were like finding old friends-- my flip flops, for one.
As I got on my bike to go home, I saw a rainbow out of the corner of my eye. It wasn't a full rainbow, just the near-bottom arch part, and it touched a mountain. I did a double take and made sure it was there. And it was! For some reason I remembered asking to be shown signs everyday, and for the signs to surprise me, and Lo! Since asking, I've seen A surprise shiny black bear- caught at just the moment that the sun came out from a cloud and beamed right on it, making it gleam, and only I saw it captured that way. I saw a bit of rainbow that could have easily been overlooked, and I've seen so many other things.
Today I got walking, living proof. I went to work to pick up a last paycheck. A while back, a nurse hired from an outside health agency was reprimanded for helping us out with our jobs as it is a liability for our company should she be hurt. I was shocked that she was given flack for helping. A card went around from us employees telling her we still loved her.... she caught me as I was walking to my car and said "Thank you for what you wrote in my card. It was the best thing anyone wrote"
and she hugged me. I couldn't remember what I wrote, but I remember that I meant it. So I said "it's from the heart." She said she hopes we cross paths again when I come back this fall.
It was nice. Super nice.
I'm thankful for all these things. I'm trying to give myself praise without feeling pride, which is hard for me. I'm trying to be humble before myself, before everyone... to not be too dramatic, too emblazened, to take things in stride, to make the most of what I have, to laugh at myself, and most of all, to beat these negative emotions out of their extremities and enjoy myself and my outlook when it's on an even keil.
Thank you!
BG/ag
