Re:1 step forward and 2 steps back fiz: I do feel like she is running away and hiding from the problem but it didint make it right for me to throw it in her face like I did. She is a wonderfull person but she tends to hide from problems and let them take over. I dont know what I'm thinking anymore. Its all a big confusion ball.
Now at the end of today I feel last night wasnt as big a deal as I made it or she is hiding her feelings. We talked on the phone and over messenger and when she came by tonite we talked by her car for a bit. Mainly about her moms website and such. She is still emmensly interested in helping me with my work and that always makes me feel good. The morning was kind of weird but things got better through the day. Sorry the post is kind of jumping around but I'm just typing what I am thinking.
Re:1 step forward and 2 steps back blondi: You and i are in a similar position, he says his heart loves me but his head is st*ffed up. I love him with every bit on me, i am trying so hard to get him to realise how much i mean to him and what i do for him, but i sent an e-mail yesterday "15 ways to make your love work"
I'm insane i know now, tried recalling but he has read it and now not talking to me and we were getting back on track i could feel it....
Hang in there sometimes i think it is them trying to get power and have something over us
Re:1 step forward and 2 steps back myowncanoe: [quote"> sometimes i think it is them trying to get power and have something over us[/quote">
Blondi, for me it is not about having power over him but over myself and my choices. I do not want to have anything 'over' him but I am choosing things just for me for the first time in years and to his mind that sometimes seems like I am punishing him or keeping a guillotine poised over his neck (his words).
Fiz, the best thing you can do is to act with Love towards her and your son and I think (from what you write) that you are doing a great job of that.
