Do you know what love is RachinOhio: Bo,
I look back on the last 7 years and all of the talks that we have had about love, what it is, how it feels and what it means. To me, it means that you put another's wants/needs and emotions before your own. You must love yourself alot. You cannot love me, or even the kids, yes, care for us, love us no. You would never do or say the things that you have and you would have done more good for us.
I am finally realizing that love isn't sopposed to be so emotionally draining and painful everyday of my life, tears shouldn't fall from my eyes everyday. Many of times, I thought what we had was love, then I woke up and saw how one sided it is. I hate my job, I go everyday because my kids need food, shelter and clothing. I hate taking care of people when I am sick, guess what? I take care of our kids anyway. I would love to have a social life, but cannot have much of one, because I love my kids and they need these things. When my mom is missing my dad, I rush right to her side, even though I have to put things that I want to do or need to do on hold. Why? Because I love her.
Is this even making sense to you? Do you know why I am writting this letter?
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, and I want you to find true love and happiness for someone besides yourself, so you don't miss out on the most wonderful feeling in the world. Good luck to you in the future and I hope for our DD's sake that you will realize these things I wouldn' for one second want them to wonder why the weren't good enough to be truly loved by "daddy"
