Having a bad day WhiskeyGirl: Well, tomorrow I have to put my old horse down, she's got cancer :'( I dont know why but this has really got me thinking about so much other stuff! This was my very first horse...got her when I was 12. I lost my dog a few months ago as well and I had her for over 13 yrs. I feel like my past is being erased....My ex husband, my dog, and this horse have been in my life for so long, been through so much with them and now the last of them are gone :( Everything in my life is new, nothing is familiar and I just feel so damn sad about it, I feel lost! I have alot of horses, 3 dogs + puppies and I am dating but I cant look at any of these things and remember all the funny stories and things from the past. They are all new....I know I will make new memories but right now I just feel like my past is gone and all I have is this scarey uncertain future staring at me! I gotta say it sucks! Cant believe putting a freaking horse to sleep can cause so many emotions but for some reason it does! Damn...mabey I should have posted this in the insanity thread!! ::) Anyone else ever felt like this.....its been over a yr since I seperated from my ex and this bloody horse seems to have me mourning the lose of him all over again! :-[ Yep, definately should have put this in the insanity thread! LOL Thanks for listening :)
Re:Having a bad day amola: oh wg...................{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
you have to be a horse person to understand this....but i know exactly where you're coming from. there's just something about a horse that you can't get from another animal.....i miss my horses every day, and they've been gone for ........... 16 years?
i can totally understand.....when all the constants in your life seem to disappear, it really leaves you feeling lost. you can always get another horse and another dog, and heck, even another husband, but they'll never be the same. treasure the memories with each of them, and strive to make new ones.
it'll slowly get easier......{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
hang in there,
amola
Re:Having a bad day jen: whiskeygirl~
Sometimes it is the craziest things that take us back to those feelings....but it makes complete sense to me that having to put your horse down would bring up a lot of feelings of hurt. Those connections to the past, no matter what they are, are reminders of how much has changed in life. And, even when those changes are positive, it just doesn't change how much of our history is tied to those old memories. And, the stability of the past is so comforting. We know what happened there and it can make it so difficult when the future isn't nearly as clear as when we thought we knew what was ahead of us.
I think it is completely normal that you would be mourning that loss all over again right now. then again, maybe I should be on the insanity thread, too...lol.
In any case, know that you are not alone in finding that any number of things can bring all those feelings back...
hugs,
mtmo
Re:Having a bad day dreamerpoet: [quote"> In any case, know that you are not alone in finding that any number of things can bring all those feelings back...
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mtmo and amola pretty much said it all. [glow=blue,2,300"> HUGS[/glow"> We are here for you!!!!! Don't feel all alone and don't feel insane for your feelings. I sucks that the past can sometimes kick us further from our "shore" of stability. It is natural for thoes feeling to resurface. Can't tell you how long a simple commercial could make me cry. Keep your chin up :)
Re:Having a bad day jackass: hug
