Re: Beating a dead horse dirk8: Wow, this sounds exactly like me. Sometimes I want to throw my phone into on coming traffic, so that I would stop looking at it like it was crystal ball or something.
One thing is for sure though, no matter how bad you want things to work out your way (ie. Get that "i want you back" call), itll never happen when you expect it to.
She has not done anything, that I know of, that will make me not want her back, but I am really afriad that it will slowly start to happen. I am not sure if that will hurt me more, or itll help me heal. I really care for her even if shes not with me, so I really pray, for her sake, she will never do anything bad.
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I had the same experience for several months following separation. I realized after a while that I was never fully asleep to begin with, I was only just dozing while waiting for that call or knock on the door. The 'I was wrong and want you back' call. It became obvious when the first thing I did upon waking was to check my cell for missed calls when I don't get many calls even during the day. It didn't get better until my stbx had done enough hurtful things during our separation that I knew if I took her back I would be hurting myself worse than staying apart. A couple things that helped me were getting on anti-depressants and sleeping on the couch. Sometimes I'd sleep all night on the couch others I'd alternate from bed to couch if I woke up. Granted, I spent many, many nights sleeping on the couch while we were together, so doing so didn't remind me she was gone. Who knows, maybe it'll ease the feeling of sleeping in an empty bed.
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Beating a dead horse My_farm: [size=20pt"> [color=red"> I AM TIRED OF WAKING AT 2:00 AM EVERY MORNING[/color"> [/size">
Re: SIMPLE SLEEP VENT Lome: http://www.blackmores.com.au/conditions/conditions_detail.asp?cat=119&cond=1049
here is a site again...incase anyone else is looking :P
Re: SIMPLE SLEEP VENT My_farm: yesterday afternoon took a 1 hour nap at 4:00PM then cut grass.
Went to bed at 9:30 PM and awoke at 1:30AM and could not return to sleep. This Sucks.
Re: SIMPLE SLEEP VENT My_farm: Yesterday I tried another early afternoon nap for 1 hour.
I again went to bed tired at 9:30 and did not sleep a wink all night.
These are vents because not many people wish to discuss their individual
sleep awakings with me.
No more naps for me. Before the Divorce I was never able to sleep anytime
before bedtime. I just thought any sleep would help at this point.
Lome and Sulley are about the only ones to acknowledge my posts,Why ?
I am just trying to understand and get past the early stages of divorce,then
I promise that I will give back MUCH more than I have taken from here.
Mike
