life sucks sometimes! tupsie: ???Yeah I thought I was completly moving on > RIGHT!!! So here goes I have not posted In a long time . I have a boyfriend he is wonderful he understands where I am coming from had a wife who cheated and everything , treats me like gold , will do anything within his power to make me happy ect....But I,m still in love with my husband !!! WHY!!!!!My father in law passed away this saturday so yesterday (tuesday) was the wake I was there with my family all day (HIS SIDE ) Ilove them all dearly. Miss my father In law (he was a wonderful man) Felt like it was really my place but SMACK!! right inthe face the whore shows up ! you know the one who got in volved with him before he even left!!!! want to kill them both. All that S**T comes back . the hurt the pain and why did this happen? Why do I still love him when I truly feel like I am falling for another? Will I ever get over this!!!All the thoughts come back I would rather be dead < whats so special about her (honestly she is ugly)everything flooding back. I cried today over him for the first time in awhile . Will it ever go away ? Why do I still love him so much when he can hurt me like this so bad. I will never recover and be normal . Will he ever realize what he has done to me and our son? Will he ever regret loosing us like everyone says or does he not care? what does she have that I dont ? Cant help but think no one will ever love him like me , with all there heart and soul ! Will I ever find that from someone else . God help me !!!!!
Re: life sucks sometimes! EssieDotCom: awwwwwwwww super big hugs to you! I dont know first hand what this feeling is like, dealing with the OW, and i hope that I never have another OW to deal with. But I'll cross that bridge when I get there. However, I do know the longing and feeling very much in love with the man who doesn't really love me like he use to.... So big hugs to you sweetie :) I think the more we stay away from those people, the more we tend to realize, or rather forget how much we are hurt, and the more we see them or are around them we tend to remember the hurt. In the case of having children with that other person, it's much harder to avoid the "noid".
