HELP!!! I AM GOING CRAZY! candlesnfire: I just want to die right now. I wish I could just shut up and not try and talk to him. I keep asking him if we are going to try and work things out or if I am moving back to Ohio. He keeps telling me he doesn't know. Or he says "let's talk about this later" or "I'm tired"....it's enough to make me pull my hair out. And then of course in the back of my head I am screaming at myself "Just leave!". It's just so hard to let go. Why doesn't he want me??? What's wrong with me??? How come she's so much better than me? I contacted her a couple times, she never admits to the affair, says they are "just friends", even though I saw emails of her to him and vice versa saying " I love you". I have offered to do whatever it takes to save our marriage, I guess it's too little too late. All he does is blame me for everything! I pushed him away....but he CHOSE to emotionally withdrawl instead of trying to be there for me! I am soooo sick of the blame game, it gets us nowhere. I am so scared to move. I have no money, no car, no job, he controls everything! And he says all these ignorant things about how if I go to an attorney, he will transfer all his savings overseas so I can't get it, not that it's much, it was about $6000....he gave me a check before when I wanted to leave, for $3000, then a couple days later he said he wanted to work things out, and I was stupid and naive enough to give the check back, and now he won't do anything for me except get me an airplane ticket. I want to get a job and put some money away, but I don't think I can stay much longer and see what he's doing. All he does is lie! And I just wish this wasn't happening. I don't know what to do anymore, i just cry all day and obsess over this, it's killing me! And as far as the OW, I want to kill her!! HELP!! I need someone to tell me I am not crazy! :'(
Re: HELP!!! I AM GOING CRAZY! acidflask: Your not crazy. You are hurt, and reacting perfectly normal for the situation.
It really stinks that he's holding you in limbo like this. He won't stop what he's doing and won't talk to you about fixing things.
You are also in a bad spot because you don't have a way to support yourself right now. Try to get a job, if you are able. Try to start taking at least some of that control he has away. It sounds almost like he's doing this because he thinks he can get away with it. Don't let him. He has to make a choice.
Good luck. I hope things get better soon.
