inebr's pity party inebr: Man, I'm really having a difficult time these last few days. I am so close to picking up the phone and calling the stbx. I am just feeling really lonely and just want to talk to someone about "stuff", nothing in particular, just all the things going through my mind. The whole divorce thing is looming (court date on the 15th of Dec.) and then the holidays and family, stress from classes and presentations. It's all too much sometimes. Ugh. I know I can handle it and I'm going to make it through but at the same time I also know how incredibly nice it would be right now to have someone to listen, to really just be there for me. Well, tomorrow's another day -- another day.
I know that once this month is over, the divorce will be final, presentations and classes done, holidays done. It will be better. There are always things in life to stress about but it usually doesn't all happen at once like this.
And I was thinking today about my stbx and thanksgiving. He went to the friend's house where we have always celebrated together. He said it was just them (this married couple) and him. And I thought he was probably sad without me there. Then I thought about how the other women before me he has been with at thanksgiving there, and that this time next year it will probably be someone else with him. Makes me feel like a "statistic". I want him to be happy. when it comes down to it I really do. I just wonder why couldn't it have been with me?
Heck, my back hurts from tension. >:(
Re:inebr's pity party PiscesGoddess: Hang in there honey.. I think alot of us go through this at the holidays.. and its so easy to want to turn to the STBX when we are lonely.. but that is usually like pouring salt on a wound.. doesnt help..just makes the pain worse.. Call a friend, family, post on ojar.. we are here for you! :)
You are stronger than you can ever believe ... You dont need this person that has busted your heart wide open..you dont even want who is now ..you want who he used to be..and that person no longer exists..Keep your chin up sweetie..there are brighter things ahead.
HUGS and thinking of you!
Pisces
Re:inebr's pity party inebr: Thanks Pisces. :)
Re:inebr's pity party dominowin: Inebr, if you're going to have a pity party, make it good for yourself! try doing something nice for *you*, especially now around the holidays. Go get a massage or a facial. Take a day off and just do something fun. Get together with a friend you haven't seen in a while. It's so natural to feel this way when it starts getting dark and cold and near the holidays...we all feel this way. But your s2bx isn't going to make you feel better, only *you* can do that. If nothing else, give yourself a big pat on the back for hanging in thus far!!!! We're all pulling for you and trying to make it through...
Re:inebr's pity party Safetykc: I agree...We are all pulling for you just as you are pulling for us...
You can do it!!!!! We are here to listen although it's not the same I know...
Take care inebr....seriously.
Big Hugs...
Safety
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