pissed BabygirlM: *this email is NOT about tonights phone conversation....its about frustration inside me that has reached the point where i cant take it anymore....its about 2 years of just letting you get away with everything and anything....and you not looking at me as ANYTHING more than whatever the hell it is you look at me as, and whatever it is, its not enough*
first of all i AM sorry that you are stressed with work, i did see you were this past weekend and i tried to help as best i could and be there for you....its never enough for you.
im sorry but i dont allow the excuse "im busy" as a factor in not talking to someone. you have time, minutes, to spare throughout the day...and do not say you dont. you have tons of opportunities to show youve "changed" (as you were suppose to be showing me these past few weeks) swore up and down i would see a difference in you.... and im sorry but i dont at all.
you just said to me on saturday morning "i promise i will call and try with you". you have not called once, and could care less if i call or email and am nice to you. all you care about is C & P and whoever is giving you attention at the moment....no you know what...you care about the whole frickin world except me. im just on the back burner as a "backup" girlfriend/friend....whatever the hell you wanna call me now. well f*ck that shit. you were right what you said the other day....C & P have done so much for you and you owe them big....and i aint done shit for you apparently....cause youve treated me like ass the past 2 years.
im sorry but it really fucking hurts that you do this....time and time and TIME again...and i just let you. busy is not an excuse!! since youre so obsessed with your co-workers lets take J for example...busiest guy around right?? who is number one in his life....His Girlfriend! because he knows his priorities. you think im gonna take this sh*t forever?? that when you just decide i can be a part of your life ill just drop everything because u finally are UNbusy....no baby....it doesnt work that way.
i am so frustrated with you i cant even stand to hear your voice right now...you just let me love you and care about you all the time and give nothing back. everything is about YOU, god i even asked to just go look at cars last weekend and yet we went looking for motercycles for you....but thats fine, i didnt mind. its just funny that everything ALWAYS has to be what you want and how you want it.
H wants to hang out with me soon....but if it means being treated like sh*t by you, then i dont think im even going over there...or ill go over when you are working or something...you certainly dont want me there....and i aint gonna deal with you ignoring me or being an ass, when i am NEVER like that to you, i give you everything in me...but it means nothing to you. and THATS why i act like a b*tch. my god everyone i talk to is like, i would never take all hes done to you from any guy....but i do.....and yet some how you always make ME out to be the b*tch.
can you not tell how i feel when we are together?? how i look at you?? if that means nothing to you then you really are a jerk and a user....and i cant even be a friend of someone who is really like that. i wont be even attempting to call you the rest of the week....if you want me you need to make some sort of effort....because i really cant take you right now.
you need to understand that it (obviously) does NOT take a lot to make me happy. you just do all the wrong things hunny...and almost on purpose. you dont get how to love someone, you dont get that just hearing from them...just a one minute..."hey just wanted to say hello or goodmorning" makes their day. if it does not make your day to hear from me....you are not in love with me. please figure that out. you keep saying you dont know....you gotta figure out what you want.....youve figured it out hunny....youve figured it out a long time ago. so why then...why am i still around....maybe its my fault...because i keep coming back....but you keep coming back too :-(
Re: pissed getting_rough: [quote author=BabygirlM link=topic=16045.msg135291#msg135291 date=1122510234">
i am so frustrated with you i cant even stand to hear your voice right now...you just let me love you and care about you all the time and give nothing back. everything is about YOU, god i even asked to just go look at cars last weekend and yet we went looking for motercycles for you....but thats fine, i didnt mind. its just funny that everything ALWAYS has to be what you want and how you want it.
i give you everything in me...but it means nothing to you. and THATS why i act like a b*tch. my god everyone i talk to is like, i would never take all hes done to you from any guy....but i do.....and yet some how you always make ME out to be the b*tch.
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That part is exactly how I feel. Glad I am not alone. Good luck I hope things get better for you.
Re: pissed ti-poux: you tell him babygirl,
You are not a rug for anybody and you are worth so much more than
that. I hope all gets better with you, you deserve hapiness and love.
chin up sweety...things have a way of working out
Chantal
Re: pissed half full: Way to put your foot down(on his head).If someone says they love you and then proceed to walk all over you,that ain't love.Dave
Re: pissed BabygirlM: i really hate him so much. he slept with another girl :'(
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