Re: Unsent letters Cassie: Dear John,
When you first left, I was shocked beyond belief. Not only did I have no idea you were leaving (your sister had to call and tell me and she lives in another state!) but WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MARRIED IN FIVE WEEKS. And you just moved out. Actually, your mom, sister and best friend moved you out of our apartment while I was at work--and you're 36. After 3 years, you didn't even have the decency to tell me you were leaving. You dropped me off at work that morning, told me to "have a good day" and I never saw you again. And they you claimed that you'd been miserable for two years and that I was a disaster? We'd bought wedding rings four days before. I couldn't rationalize things. I got a therapist. It's a month now. I'm certain you're a sociopath. I'm reading a book called the "The Sociopath Next Door" and it's about you. Not that you were going to kill anyone but you used me, you used my family, and you blame me for everything. I dragged your arse through school for two years! All my friends felt uncomfortable around you, I'm trying not to blame myself for not seeing who you were, that you didn't love me, never did, were incapable of love. That you were a parasite, that you used me. And I loved you. This past year I've been so tired, so worn out and I blamed it all on school. . .How could I have been so blind? I'm so blessed not to be marrying you but how can I EVER trust anyone again?!
Re: Unsent letters Fajar: [color=green"> I'm so blessed not to be marrying you[/color">
Indeed its a blessing to have discovered this great pretender for what she is. Thank your lucky stars. You are now free to meet whoever you pleas, do whatever you feel like doing. Liberty is the word. Celebrate!
Re: Unsent letters lghawaiian: *Hugs*
What he did to you was detestible, Cassie. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. And to not even have the decency of talking to you about it?? Ugh.
Indeed, be thankful you did not marry him. He is obviously not deserving of you. And, if he is a sociopath, here's to hoping he finds some help.
Welcome to Ojar. As everyone says around here, sorry you need us, but we're glad you're here.
Re: Re: Unsent letters PhoeFee: I think I need to make some changes... Im gonna work on getting my own cell phone so Im not relying on you in anyway. I need to move on and detatch myself, for my own good as well as others well being. Im not wanting anyone to feel like they are taking care of me anymore.
I have learned a valuable lesson, a lesson I had actually already learned but thought it would be different I guess!
Im done obsessing over you, yay... now you can shout for joy!! Imma leave you alone!!! I cant go stay at your mom's. It would be a cool idea, but I dont wanna feel like Im depending on her and I dont think I should hang on to anymore links to you... not that you really give a shit anymore. I just called you to hear your voice and that is the last time Im calling you. I cant put myself through anymore, as Im sure thats how you felt with me. Im sure youre more than ecstatic to hear this, just hoping I follow through.
I apologize for however I made you feel. Hopefully we both learned something from that.
Hopefully you met your perfect woman. Sorry I wasnt more to your liking... in someones eyes i am a great woman. I just havent met her yet. Im not perfect but who is? I hope you the best in life. and wish more than anything that I could be your friend but it wont work. I have way too many resentments, the same goes for you. You will never be able to trust me or let go of what happened and it has taken this small incident to make me realize I wont be able to look at you the same either. You just drew the line faster than me. You say you have been holding on for 2 years... well I held on for that amount of time too. Im sure I should have just dropped it a long time ago.
I already know that youre takin this email as an attack or something of the sort... all Im really doing is expressing myself. Maybe not the best thing at the moment especially for the way I feel, but im hoping it will be some sort of therapy for me. You have moved on and I should do the same.
I love you and will always be in love with you and thats why I think this is the best for you, me and D. He keeps holding onto his ideas of how he thinks its going to be and I dont want to feed into that anymore.
I know that when I ask you if you ever want to be with me again or think we could and you say you dont know, I have realized the answer isnt "I dont know"... the real answer Is NO. Youre just trying to save my feelings.
Im not really your type anyway and maybe we should have discussed that b4 we got together. You want someone who is like you, self suffucient and all that. Im a lil old fashioned in some ways and way ahead of my time in others. Not necessarily self sufficient and not really wanting to be. My idea of a relationship is different from yours.
Like I said b4 you should have told me to get out sooner... NOT POINTING ANY FINGERS. Cuz there are things I should have done too.
Thinking at this point I probably shouldnt send this email but Im making myself do it anyway
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