Blah... Smiley17: I'm tired...
I need to go out...
I need.... yeah....
Re: Blah... ColoHill: Poor girl. I feel your pain, believe me. Hope your day gets better.
Re: Blah... Smiley17: Thank you!
I think I'm finally crashing. I've been running on pure anger and adrenaline for the past five or so days. I'm not eating like I should and I'm constantly on the go.
I've had revelations and realizations that I've been supressing for years that have hit me all in the same week. I'm still not too sure how to handle that, but are any of us really?
This is so weird. I can't believe that I'm actually feeling this. I thought I went through my whole crazy breakdown thing 2 years ago. Could it be happening again? God, I hope not. I already lost four months from my life the last time it happened. No, I'm not really crazy, I just had too much going on at the time and it broke me for a few months.
What's happening to me? How did I get here again? How did I get so hurt? Why do I feel so weak and stupid? Why am I asking these dumb questions?
Is this normal? A week ago, I was the one with all the answers, now I'm the one with all the questions, and where is he? Probably either back with his ex, or some other girl.
Why do I care? It was less than 2 months and I didn't love him. I couldn't love him. This is stupid!!!
How the hell did this happen?
Ok, clearly, I need sleep because I feel really weird, an I'm not liking this!!
This doesn't happen to me anymore. I'm supposed to be strong! I'm supposed to be smart! I'm supposed to have my head on straight! Well, I thought I did 6 weeks ago. Maybe I really didn't.
Enjoying my ramble? ::)
OMG!!! I've turned into him!!!!! >:(
Re: Blah... AfterMath: Aww Smiley, I feel so bad for ya. This is a bump in the road (OK maybe a big pothole), but you'll get through it. You've done it before.
Is there any way you could take off from work early & nap for a couple hours before you have to pick the boys up?
(((Big Hugs)))
Re: Blah... dreamerpoet: (((((HUGS)))))) Sorry this is a hard time for you right now. Nothing sucks more than getting the rug yanked out from under you.
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It will get better let the "poision" (for lack of a better word) flow out of you and what is left after the rush of badness will be a better purified self. It sucks to have to go through it but it has been bottled so tight for so long it just needs to be purged. We are all here for you to help you through this!!!!!
I will be praying for you.
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