Re: Blah... ti-poux: Hey girl
I've been gone for a while I feel so sorry for you.
I wish I could just send you good luck vibes...well I'll try
but I can't promise anything ;)
I know you are strong sweety and you will gt through this.
I broke down before once, and it scares me to anticipate it
ever happening again. You know you will be fine, you are strong and smart and no you are not crazy...sometimes it just feels like it.
I am with you smiley, if you need to pm me do so and I will do my best.
BIG HUGS
Chantal
Re: Blah... Smiley17: Thank you guys, really.
I just don't get it. I went through my pain and rejection. Why did he have to deflect his on me? What did I ever do to him besides listen for hours upon hours and build him back up?!
This is CRAZY!
He should have dealt with his issues himself instead of picking me out of a crowd and thinking that I could help him!!! WTF!!
Oh, and AfterMath, I'm stuck here until 5, and I don't want to go back to that house anyway. I hate that house!
There's more, but I can't type it right now...
Re: Blah... dj: Smiley,
You said it yourself, you have all these new revelations coming at you left and right and pounding into you. This was bound to happen as soon as you realized what was up. It's ok to feel like you feel. There are a TON of things you have to work out now...remember...one day at a time, if that is too much, one hour at a time...even a minute at a time if you have to.
We are here for you.
Re: Blah... Smiley17: Second part...
I just don't understand. I really don't. I was such a good friend to him... maybe too good. I promised him that I would never abandon him because I know that people do abandon others when they are at their lowest state, because sometimes that lowest state becomes too much for people to handle. I understood that, and I swore to him that I would never do that. Sure I asked for a few days "off", but I never held to that. I was there for him anyway. I did everything I could for him. I was tough when I needed to be and sympathetic when I needed to be. I was there!! I was there the entire time! I NEVER left him!!!
I was the friend that I needed when I was at my lowest point. I never wanted him to feel that kind of abandon. I never wanted him to feel as alone as I did, to have the breakdown that I did.
I saw myself in him. It was like watching myself 2 years ago. I wanted to help him the way I needed to be helped back then. I didn't want another person to feel the way I felt.
He came to ME!!!!
Re: Blah... AfterMath: Smiley,
Clearly you gave more than any mortal human being should be asked to give. You gave & gave & gave, and got nothing in return.
I think you need to re-group & focus on Smiley and those two boys only. Period.
We're all here to support you!
(((Hugs))))
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