Christmas TiredandScared: I know I am truely scared more and more as every day that goes by of Christmas and the ghosts of Christmas' past. I am feel truely sad that I will be spending what was always a happy time for me alone. I really don't want to think about it, but it's every where. From the mall to the grocery store to the radio. I just can't get away from it and it seems like its depressing me more and more. If I could I'd love to get away from it but can't right now.
Oh well, I'll be alone and thinking of all that might have been.
Re:Christmas picadilly: I understand, i have those same feelings. I'm moving in with sme friends this week, I think it'll be good for me to be around others, atleast for a while. All these holidays will come rushing at us, first time alone for all of them. We just have to move forward & maybe spend time with family and/or friends. It's rough I know, i feel it too, but this is not the end of the world, things still go on and we have to learn to move on too.
Hang tough & be strong.
Re:Christmas TiredandScared: Thanks man, I guess I am just afraid of it all, and rushing is putting it mildly.
(Taking a deep breath)
It'll all work out, it always does, it still sucks.
Re:Christmas down2basics: Aw T&S! That's terrible!
I'll tell ya - if it weren't for my kids - I'd probably go stark raving mad! I don't really like the holidays anyway because they are sooooo freaking stressful on me....wish lists - shopping lines...layaway plans.....credit card statements.....aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrghhhh!!!
But to spend it alone - man....I can't even imagine! My heart goes out to you - truly! If you were in East Texas you could come to our house.....if you want!!! FWIW! ;D
Hugs!
d2b
Re:Christmas TiredandScared: I got a cann from my out of town family saying hey what are your plans and lets get together, but I feel like such a shmuck I don't really want to face them when my stress level is up and I'm down, so I have been kind of a d1ck and not called them back.
I just feel like I don't want to be around family (thats screwed up any ways) right now.
And D2B thanks for the offer, it's alittle to long of a haul for me know, but you never know who'll show up on your door step come christmas ;)
