proud I kept my cool lexi1012: hello,
I faced my husband for the first time after 3 weeks away from home. He had informed while I was away that he would be moving out while me and my daughter were away. So I thought I would be mad and sad - I was getting off the plane and wondering what I was going to feel. When I saw him I missed him and wanted to hug him, but I didn't. We managed to discuss things without arguing. He is pretty much a mess himself which helped me feel better about everything. I had this idea that he was okay with everything and not feeling anything - guess I was wrong. I made no push to work things out, but discussed how we are going to work out the immediate situation - living arrangements, him spending time with our daughter.
I miss him and love him, but I don't feel that desperate pain anymore. I have no urge to cry at all. Maybe it will come back tomorrow, but for tonight I am glad it's gone. I know it's going to be a long, rough road, but I feel like perhaps this is for the best. It's a relief to be out of the uncertainty finally. I feel like he may crack, but I have to be strong and resist. He seems very weak. Says he doesn't want to be around me because he can't resist me.
anyway, I wish peace for all who are on here tonight. It sure feels good to write stuff out.
Erin
Re: proud I kept my cool sourpuss: glad it went well for you. i hope that it stays that way.
