confused again alonewith2: I know he's an a$$, but I can't help thinking I should just get back together with him (cohabitate) and leave it at that. I keep thinking being with him is better than being alone. I have had so many financial problems since we separated in June. I've had so many babysitting problems in the last 3 weeks. I am warn out physically, emotionally, and mentally. I keep thinking I should just give in and let him move back in. He kept saying we should just live together, even though we weren't together because financially it made sense for both of us. But I kept thinking then that there was no way I wanted to live with someone that I wasn't with. But now, it just seems to make sense.
Besides the financial and babysitting aspect, I've decided that the "one" doesn't exist for me, and if he does, I have no idea how to find him. I've tried dating. There is no one around here that I want to date. I've tried the online thing, but haven't even been tempted to want anything with anybody. There was one that I talked to for a long time, met him, and he ended up looking and acting so much like one of my ex boyfriends that I ran... I can't even find babysitters to work, so there's no way I can find one so that I can go out. Even if I could, where would I go? I have no friends here. All my friends have married and moved away. There are no available men my age where I work, so I can't even take that option. The only people in the grocery store are women and the elderly. I feel like a hopeless case. And I doubt there is anyone out there that would want to take me and my two kids......
I guess what I'm saying is that I feel that I've lost, and he's won. There is no other life out there for me other than my children. But they would probably benefit more too if I just gave up, took the cheater back in, and settle for an okay situation.
Re: confused again alonewith2: I should change the title from confused again to defeated. That's more telling of my feelings right now.....defeated.......
Re: confused again Failedjedi: Alone with 2.....
I myself have had a very very trying day...
I feel I need to just post and read to stay sane.
I feel that you need to know someone is never defeated no matter how bad it is, things will change
true defeat only occurs when the soul is gone , no more poooof toast.
Can I intrest you in a PIE THROWING CATAPULT ?
smile...
Re: confused again alonewith2: do you have lemon meringue or chocolate peanut butter? If so, catapult one my way, will ya?
Re: confused again Failedjedi: nope just the catapult and today I was gonna aim it at someone and load it with a "certain type of pie" BUT I think I will get my KARMA gun :D the big toy...
Glad you have a sense of humour left :D
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