It took every bit of strength SingleMom: It took every bit of strength that I had left in my body not to come over tonight. I invisioned myself waiting at the door for you to open it. As I stood poised to knock the living daylights out of you. I could even feel the impact that my fist would have had with your face. I would then kick you while you were trying to figure out what the heck just happened. Oh, and the screaming that I would be doing! Don't even get me started. Yes, tonight I would have taken great pride in actually hurting you.
You see, the cell bill came today so I opened it. To my surprise there were over 50 text messages to her, not to mention the calls that were listed after midnight. If there was nothing going on and you had a "brother/sister" relationship, then why would you need to talk to her at 3 in the morning? What is so important that you need to send messages back and forth 5-6 times a day. Why did you change the password to the cell website, only to give me the password, only to change it again? Hell, WHY did I trust you in the first place?
I have been reaching out to you for the last 6 months. You let me believe that your issues were with the changes that came with having kids. I got you into therapy, we had long talks, I was there for you. But, you didn't have the balls tell me the truth! You fell for another woman. You idiot!! You are leaving me and your babies for another woman who is leaving her husband. But, here's the kicker--she has 2 kids as well!! So, it had nothing to do with having kids. You just wanted to leave me to be with her. I am so freaking sorry that your life with me was so horrible that you needed to find comfort elsewhere. I hope the both of you fall madly in love and have a wonderful 14 years together. Hell, I hope you are going along thinking life is great and feeling so good with yourself. I hope you make big plans for the rest of your life and dream big. I hope you think of each other constantly and dread being apart. And, YES, I hope she cheats on you and rips your heart out , destroys your dreams, steals precious time from you, lie and betrays you, tells you that she doesn't remember that last time she felt anything for you, makes you feel unloved, hurt, empty, sick, scared, angry, overwhelmed, pathetic, stupid, and foolish.
You know, just like you did to me. I really hope that there is something to this whole Karma deal. Because I would love for you to feel the pain that you have caused me. Even if you just felt an ounce of the hurt that you have bestowed upon me, I know it would be more than you could physically take. You make me sick. I am so disgusted with you as a person. But, atleast I now know the truth. The truth that you were to cowardly to tell me.
You are so lucky that I didn't get in the truck and come over tonight. You have my mom and sister to thank for saving you butt. My hands were shaking and the tears were falling. But believe me, I would have put a serious hurt on you tonight. And, yes, I do think that it would have made me feel better. But, now we'll never know. Lucky for you!
Re: It took every bit of strength alonewith2: I remember the first time I opened up the phone bill and found all the calls to the OW's cell phone. It really perturbed me to think that he used my phone to call her!!
My STBX did the same thing with the passwords to his email account. To prove that I could trust him, he gave me the password, but then changed it a few days later. Must have been expecting some really good email at that point lol
Re: It took every bit of strength lonelywithouthim: i feel your pain.. only i tried knocking the door down, only for him to call the cops and make me the bad person ONCE AGAIN. I even called the OW, and she admitted to sleeping with him, not knowing I was 5 months pregnant, and I found out that SHE'S PREGNANT TOO! (not with his child, thank god) How stupid are these guys? We are just smarter than them I guess.
