i just want my stuff amola: dear t......
i'm tired of the lies, i'm tired of the bullsh!t, i'm just f*cking tired of everything right now.
yes, we are over. yes, you finally told me that after i demanded an answer. fine. i can deal with that. i'll get over it eventually.
but you know what i can't deal with? the constant lies from you! the constant "i'll bring your stuff over tonight" and then you never show up. i just want my godd@mned stuff back! yes, it's just a cheap rubbermaid hamper, but it was gramma's and she's been gone for 11 years now so i want it back. the hat that you have--my kids got that for me for christmas this past year, yet you took it upon yourself to wear it constantly, get it filthy-dirty, and not return it. I WANT IT BACK! my house key--pretty self-explanatory there, i think. you don't want to be involved in my life, i don't want you to have the opportunity to walk back into my house uninvited.
when you say you're going to bring it over, bring it over. your hamper and your cell phone bill are on the front porch, right where i told you that they are. you don't even have to come into the house. you don't even have to see my face.
when you say that you're going to go to a doctor's appointment with me, then show up. or at least call to tell me that you're not going to.
you told me once "baby, if you ever get pregnant, i'm going to treat you like a queen. you're not going to have to do anything except sit around with your feet up while i wait on you hand and foot and take care of you" i should have known right then and there that you were too good to be true. granted, i laughed and told you that i didn't need all that attention, but it would be nice to have some since my ex didn't do sh!t for me during any of my other pregnancies. but what am i dealing with now? i am trying my best to raise 3 kids, work 2 jobs, and keep a 4 bedroom house somewhat clean, by myself. i work every time that i don't have the kids, so the house has been sliding past lately. it's a disgusting mess. i'm embarrassed to have anyone come into it. but i don't have time or the strength to do anything about it. a little bit of help cleaning would be nice.
but you know what? i'll get it done. somehow, someway, i'll get it all done.
i don't NEED you. i don't even WANT you anymore. i'm not even 100% certain that i want your emotional support anymore. you go, you be with your other baby's momma. give her the love and support that she needs, since this is her first experience with motherhood. don't be an @$$ to her like you have to me.
i just want my stuff. plain and simple. bring it over. otherwise, i will continue to call you and ask you for it. i don't want to be a b!tch about this. i don't want to pick a fight. i just want my stuff.
Re: i just want my stuff alonewith2: [quote author=amola link=topic=17070.msg145688#msg145688 date=1123953514">
what am i dealing with now? i am trying my best to raise 3 kids, work 2 jobs, and keep a 4 bedroom house somewhat clean, by myself. i work every time that i don't have the kids, so the house has been sliding past lately. it's a disgusting mess. i'm embarrassed to have anyone come into it. but i don't have time or the strength to do anything about it. a little bit of help cleaning would be nice.
but you know what? i'll get it done. somehow, someway, i'll get it all done.
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I feel the exact same way......upset that I don't have the strength and energy to do it all myself, upset that sometimes I wish he would help me, and then a determination to find the strength to do it alone to feel better about myself and to prove that I don't need him........Chin up girl.......... baby steps....you'll get through it. I was pregnant with one kid, and you are pregnant with 3 kids! The strength you show really impresses me and encourages me to keep my up!!
Re: i just want my stuff Suddenly Single: Amola,
HUGS to you. I know the stuff is important and you want it back but maybe you should take a look at what the stuff is and is it really worth this extra stress on you? I know some of the stuff is sentimental and it is important but it sounds like righ tnow this stuff is causing you some stress. Let it go. Concentrate on yourself and the kids. You don't need the extra grief right now. Maybe in time he will give it back - maybe he is not returning it because he knows how important it is and he just wants to hold that back from you for some strange reason. Maybe he is enjoying the calls and the attention you are giving him - maybe he is using your stuff as some sort of game. Don't play his games honey. You don't need this crap in your life.
I know it is hard...let it go....easier said than done. >:(
HUGS HUGS HUGS to you..... SS
Re: i just want my stuff amola: yeah, ss, you're probably right. i should just let it go.
i think the part that pisses me off the most is the hat. it's a penn state hat that my kids got for me for christmas, which of course means that the ex actually picked it out. and since he HATES penn state, i know in a way it took alot for him to buy it. i love the hat, it's a really cool hat, and the kids have been asking me lately "mom, why don't you wear the hat that we bought for you anymore?".....i'm tired of trying to come up with excuses as to where it is.
i just want it back. he said he'd bring it back. god, i f*cking hate that he can piss me off like this over stupid little stuff.
Re: i just want my stuff alonewith2: Besides the fact of either not wanting to give in or because you have no desire to go over there......is there any reason why you can't go get the stuff yourself? Just show up there sometime when you know he is home and tell him you're not leaving until he gives you your stuff!!
once again............WE ARE.............................PENN STATE.........................
........................THANK YOU............................YOUR WELCOME!!!!
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