Having a "my ass is falling off" moment jt5639: as my brother nicely puts it...
I've had such a huge dip this week, and a freak out right now...haven't cried like this in quite some time...
I want to call him so bad...tell him I miss him...ask him to come back to be...
it's been alsmost 6 months - I fell so pathetic! He has a g/f and has for months now...
I miss him so much...and can not comprehend his actions...he totally bailed when things got bad...he was going to propose, and 2 months later has someone new...who's met his family...one of my friends (his cousin) we were getting so close...now she doesn't call me...she's pregnant now and I don't get to be a part of that...instead this new girl does...
I feel like such an idiot...I really though I was going to be with this man for the rest of my life...I've never been so hurt in my life...
I don't want to feel this way anymore...I'm so ready to be happy again...to not think of this a*hole anymore...I really don't know what more to do...
My friends don't know what to say to me...I feel like I should be over this by now...
Sorry for the rambling...I just need to get this out and know y'all will understand a lot more than other people will...
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
BTW- I'm not really going to call him...just really want to.
Re: Having a "my ass is falling off" moment Smiley17: You're just having a temporary set back, hun. It'll be ok. Try to think of the things that went wrong, the things that made you angry or feel hurt. It'll help ward off the haunting memories you're having, and help build you back up again.
That was the best advice that was ever given to me, and you know what? It works if you really use it.
Keep writing out your feelings, get it out of your system. You'll feel much better after.
Try to imagine the toxin of his memory flowing out of your fingers as you write everything out. It's a simple thing, but it really does help.
Re: Having a "my ass is falling off" moment jadedangel: [color=navy"> So much of your post I could of wrote myself ....
It's been 5 months .. he has a girlfriend since May/June... I thought he was the person I was to spend my entire life with ... He was my best friend and he hurt me like no other person in the world has... My sister said to me tonight, " I just don't know what to tell you anymore" ... and I can't get him out of my head ...and I think so much of it is -- I don't get it ... I don't get how it became okay to just fall out of love with me .. without giving me a minutes notice.
So... mostly writing so you again know your not alone. I hope it gets better.... and when you find what helps ... let me know! [/color">
Re: Having a "my ass is falling off" moment jt5639: Thanks Smiley...I know this is temporary...wish that made it easier...yes, I will keep writing, it is helpful...
Jaded -
Thank you - it is helpful to know I'm not alone...I'm sorry you have to feel this way too...
I don't know...we are obviously such different people...so obvious in the way he dealt with the end of our relationship...when it came to a crisis, I stepped up - and he ran away...
God, I don't get him...
The small comfort I have is realizing this...I hate how it had to come about, but I can not spend the rest of my life with someone who deals with crisis the way he does...not the makings for a life partner...
Thanks for your words...and if you come up with the magic solution first - please let me know...
jt
Re: Having a "my ass is falling off" moment jadedangel: [quote author=jt5639 link=topic=17099.msg146095#msg146095 date=1123991434">
God, I don't get him...
The small comfort I have is realizing this...I hate how it had to come about, but I can not spend the rest of my life with someone who deals with crisis the way he does...not the makings for a life partner...
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[color=navy"> I would give anything to have him call me .. and come back to me ... but, I sorta have that ... if he was to come back -- how can I just forget the stuff he did ... forget the stuff he said ... and forget some of his actions. He has changed so much from a year ago... and done things that are so out of character from the person I fell in love with ... I guess I don't have to deal with that .... but, it is the only comfort I have in losing him.
And of course I will share the magick -- if I ever find it.[/color">
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