Re: Talking About Marriage? Yeehaw: I apologize.
I simply do not have the words to say what I'm trying to say.
Suffice to say I was taken for granted and was used and abused because of it.
Again, I apologize.
:-\
Dennis
Re: Talking About Marriage? Smiley17: Yeehaw - I understand that you were taken for granted, but I'm Smiley, not her. Totally different person. It's all good though, you're forgiven! :-*
You're right, absolute, I'm trying not to over think anything, but when you've been through the ringer, it happens. Let's put it this way, I haven't sat up at night and cried in fear yet, and I've seen him more than any one of my past dates. I think that's a good sign!
I forget how the subject of marriage was brought up, but it was done in total comfort, and we even joked a lot about it. I told him about my wedding and how I hated it, and we joked that it was a giant red flag that I didn't totally see. Not a big deal. He asks me little things about my marriage, and even senses when I start to get uncomfortable. He tells me that I don't have to talk about it if I don't want to. He doesn't grill me, and doesn't ask too many personal questions. It's totally at my pace, which is one of the main reasons I feel so comfortable with him.
I can breathe a little, or at least I feel I can.
I started this whole Gas Guy thing to get help, and now I post things to give others hope, and let others know that I have the same fears as they do. I'm learning as I go, and I share it to help others learn too. As long as you guys don't mind it, I'll keep posting about it. :D
Re: Talking About Marriage? RSGinATX: [quote author=Smiley Girl link=topic=18030.msg159304#msg159304 date=1125437712">
I started this whole Gas Guy thing to get help, and now I post things to give others hope, and let others know that I have the same fears as they do. I'm learning as I go, and I share it to help others learn too. As long as you guys don't mind it, I'll keep posting about it. :D
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Please, please DO continue! Between your Gas Guy saga and Bubba/BBH's nuptials this has been the most uplifting weeks of reading Ojar since I first started lurking several months ago!
You have many people lurking your threads with a big smile :D
Re: Talking About Marriage? Yeehaw: [quote author=Smiley Girl link=topic=18030.msg159304#msg159304 date=1125437712">
Yeehaw - I understand that you were taken for granted, but I'm Smiley, not her. Totally different person.
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Argh.
That's not it, not it at all. Can't seem to explain it - thus I'll shut up now.
:-\
Re: Talking About Marriage? Smiley17: HUGS, Yeehaw.
I'm glad that I can make people smile, but there are some lurkers out there who read this (one in my own mind who won't admit to it), who want to be jerks and try to destroy my happiness. By coming out of the dark to intensionally start trouble. If that lurker is reading this, you can go to hell because you're not destroying me. You created a speed bump, I tried to be nice, but you decided to be a total a$$hole.
I won't break and I won't stop moving forward with my own life.
I'll keep posting this to give people hope, and to help people smile during some of the toughest times of their lives.
There are ways out of the dark. 2 years ago, I had a nervous breakdown because of everything that was going on in my life. I hit the emotiona; rock bottom and had to fight my way back up. I did that. I'm not totally out of it yet, but I'm slowly learning to take care of myself and to trust someone else. It's been a slow process, but I'm making it, and I'm finally giving myself credit for it.
Everyone here on Ojar are wonderful people in my eyes, and without you, I might not have anything to write today. I thank you all for that, and promise to keep you posted.
If I can get here, so can you! :-*
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