Broken Vows charmed: Dedicated to my ex-husband. Our 28th anniversary would have been tomorrow.
"Broken Vows"
On bended knee, a promise made
Cupid’s arrow taken aim
Vows of love for better or worse
A destination unknown
Union of two, late summer
Our children, God’s masterpiece
Priority of family and home
Trying to make you happy
Perfecting my performance
But faltering in my efforts
Months rolled into years
Living in fear of your anger
Object of your tirades
Can’t escape the prison walls
Finding solitude in the dark of night
Watching your rage flow out
I bleed, losing the battle
Like a rose left unattended
I wither a little more each day
My heart lay barren
Afraid to leave, afraid to stay
Within the doors of “home sweet home”
Trying to be the good wife
Did you notice my deep sadness and fear?
Behind my eyes I was hiding
Love is a special gift
Not to be used as a weapon
Maybe someone taught you wrong
Manifesting your demons on me
Maybe you don’t know how to love
A heart once rich with light
Paling in a shattered dream
No soft place to fall
No honor, no respect
No arms to hold me when I cry
Wonder turned into woe
Reflection of bleaks affliction
My very soul languishes and dies
Destroying the person I could have been
Losing myself within your world
I imagined myself as a bird
Trying to find wings
To fly to freedom
Thoughts of the imaginative kind
Longing to unleash all that I am
Dreaming of what tenderness felt like
Longing to feel loved
Searching for a safe haven
I washed away the pain of your touch
Emotional scars that would never mend
A life that should have been serene
Forced into a world I learned to hate
I died a thousand deaths
Bound by shackles and chains
Held captive within your walls
Unspoken threats, motionless stares
Walking across my mind
Your grip too strong to release
Carving in my emotions
Demolishing what’s left of me
Pain can never deceive
Withered lips, brooding kisses
Must I be your captive still?
A dark storm before my eyes
Was this the price I needed to pay?
I had the best of intentions
Not prepared for what lay hidden
Tears, a reflection of the emptiness
Aching melody of trepidation
My own life’s destruction
Needing to unlearn the things you taught me
I will rise above the pain
Let me fly and find my escape
I will soar to a safe place, a new life
Spiraling beyond the sun, to find peace
Re: Broken Vows lostboy: woah...
I'm not even certain how to respond to what Iv just read, but to tell you I'm about to read it again.
I was quite moved.
Lostboy
Re: Broken Vows charmed: Thank you losboy. A very realistic depiction of my life with my ex-h.
