didnt make it.... Kat0628: I broke down....went to see him....used the excuse that I wouldnt be there when he drops the rest of my stuff off (which I really wont) .... so I had to give him his tools out of my car.... Stupid stupid idea....never should have gone over there....should have just dropped them off when he wasnt home if anything....
really nice going Kat....couldnt stick to it for even a week... smooth move....
oh well...I think I'll catch up on my sleep for the next week or so....if I'm sleeping I can't think about going over there....I WON'T DO IT AGAIN!!!
I promise myself that 100% this time....
Although he did ask me what was up with what I had said the other night…(the night I went to ask for my ring back… and tell him I wouldn’t be friends yet)
I told him that’s just how I feel…he didn’t have much to say after that…just got really quiet and sad…
I can't break down like that again though...I need to get my head on straight about him...and about everything...
I feel better though since I know now by my own eyes that he's doping ok... He started school again and picked up more hours at work... at least he's handling his sh*t...I need to do the same....
Re: didnt make it.... dgiirl: Aww Kat, dont beat yourself up too much. We've all slipped from time to time. That's what makes us human :) Be good to yourself and go pamper yourself! It will help you keep your mind off of him, and build your confidence at the same time :) *hugs*
Re: didnt make it.... piper: Hey, your not alone. I find stupid ways to see my ex as well, its hard not to when he lives a block away. I know, like u, to leave him well enough alone, but i have found that the hardest thing to do is let go of love. It is even harder when it seems like he has begun to let go first. I am hurting bad and he was my comfort zone, i really dont know many other people. So try getting out as much as possible and do random things. thats how i found this website!! talk to others but find ways to avoid anything that reminds u of him
Piper
Re: didnt make it.... sourpuss: don't beat yourself up. happens to all of us.....sometimes more than once.
Re: didnt make it.... Kat0628: He seemed really sad yesterday.... it was my choice to not be friedns...because of the fact that he doesn’t seem to know what he wants...or who he wants to be with…. This is just all so hard to handle…
It’s hard to keep away…but harder to be there…
I’ve been trying to keep busy… been learning a lot about myself the past few days actually…
Don’t really have too many friends out here so I decided to go out by myself last night…(though that could be why I wandered over there later)
It works though…it gives me a chance to meet new people…and a great chance to think…
I’ve started setting goals for myself…hopefully it’ll make the time pass quicker
still miss him though...more every day if thats possible....
It's hard to go from seeing someone everyday for 6 months straight...then not seeing or talking to them at all...
:'( :'(
It'll be ok eventually though :-\
