Happy Birthday you #@!!?@$%&* genesplicer: Hrmph, well it's that time of year again, my freakin stbx's birthday. I felt better than I was expecting when I woke up this morning, but it didn't last long. Walked right into some expected but not really welcome storm of all the anger and frustration and searing hurt that had just started to finally recede a little bit.
So now I've been sitting here resisting the urge to call him. I want to call him and tell him exactly how I hope his birthday goes, complete with him choking on something before the day is done. Ask him if the grass is so much greener now for him, laugh at him when he realizes that I WASNT the source of all his unhappiness...
I know, I know, it wouldn't do me any good, I'd likely feel way worse afterwards. And he's clearly not worth me making myself feel any worse than I already do.
This is silly, I'm so freakin tired of missing him. Well F**K him today, I think I'll make a nice big dinner and a bottle of wine tonight.
Re: Happy Birthday you #@!!?@$%&* AfterMath: Dinner & wine rocks geneslicer. Good for you. And yes F@ck him!!!
Re: Happy Birthday you #@!!?@$%&* Lumpy: [quote author=AfterMath link=topic=18514.msg165001#msg165001 date=1126396548">
Good for you. And yes F@ck him!!!
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He might like that.
Re: Happy Birthday you #@!!?@$%&* genesplicer: Thanks guys. :)
Tonight is going great. First time I've actually cooked a *real* meal in almost 4 months. Made a nice pasta dish with fresh cream sauce, roasted red peppers and mushrooms, grilled chicken and some garlic bread. And a cheap bottle of bubbly to go with it!
Hmm, I think cookies might be in order for dessert.
And heck, with all this cooking I forgot what made me get off my butt and do it for a while tonight. Even better! ;D
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[quote author=AfterMath link=topic=18514.msg165001#msg165001 date=1126396548">
Good for you. And yes F@ck him!!!
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He might like that.
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Yea, don't think that's gonna happen. ::)
Re: Happy Birthday you #@!!?@$%&* genesplicer: *chuckles*
I guess time really does change the way we look at things… It’s been a year, and I can thankfully say that I’m nowhere as angry tonight as I was when I started this thread. I suppose if I had to try and describe it I’d say there’s a lot more ambivalence toward today, but like any other ‘holiday’ it predisposes me to think about where I am, where I’ve been and where I thought I would be..
Funny how things never quite seem to go the way we’ve planned…
Surprisingly enough, I’ve still been struggling with the urge to make some sort of contact to acknowledge that I still remember what today is, you know, send a card or something. In the end though, I decided to just let it pass. There’s no potential for friendship there, so why even bother. Damn me and my nostalgia….
But progress is progress… at least I’m not ranting about wanting him to choke on something still this year. ::)
I think that’s something I can drink to. ;)
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