Ex's e-mails jt5639: Dammit. I've been doing no contact since May. Sent out one e-mail shortly after 'cause our last phone call was full of my anger and I didn't want that to be the last time we "talked". He sends e-mail here and there saying "hi". There getting closer in time now. First it was like once every six weeks. Now like once every two weeks. Just read one where he's saying Happy Opening - my show opened last night.
So the point here? Everytime I get one, I get a little bit of hope, and I hate it. I start to wonder if he's still with his girlfriend. If this is more than just saying hi. I feel so stupid because I'm sure it's not.
I'm not sure what to do. I can't pretend like he doesn't exist. I know our paths will cross and I want to be civil. Sometimes as the anger is receding I think I'd even like to be his friend someday.
I hate hate hate that I still have hope. It makes me feel so pathetic. And I feel like I've been doing really well moving on, letting go of the anger, releasing myself from all this break-up crap. And this hope makes me think that I'm fooling myself. Aaaaargggggggggg. >:( >:( >:( >:(
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Re: Ex's e-mails jadedangel: [color=navy"> Jt ..
I sorta have a similiar situation -- where he does that. Sometimes the message is simple .. and sometimes the message is a page long -- It's strange because he still wants to ask my advice .. and he still wants to talk sometimes like we used to do. I don't do so well with no contact -- because it seems every time I do okay with it -- he calls, he writes .. or something.
I don't wonder if he is still with his girlfriend ... because I get to hear about her still ... So I do also wonder about intention and reason behind what he is doing.
I hate hate hate ... having hope ever with him .. because I know it is lost hope --- and I think sometimes .. he likes me hanging on to him -- and that makes it just that much worse .. Almost like the back up plan everyone talks about. The hope is fooling yourself -- try to get over it -- because all it is going to do is hurt you.
Keep moving on ... keep letting go ... even if he wants to chit chat ... don't give him the satisfaction of keeping your heart. [/color">
