An Open Letter to Ojar (and I am SO sorry I rambled!) sigkapgirl: An Open Letter to Ojar,
Well, I have tried twice now to leave Ojar. And this is twice that I have been unsuccessful in my attempt. Perhaps I should have termed my leaving instead as a break. Each time, I knew that I wasn’t ready, not healed (I loathe this word). I left anyway, however, because sometimes I just can’t handle the stress. I was hurt and offended by being indirectly “called out” on more than one occasion, as well as being called a couple of choice names which I totally didn’t appreciate. I have many stressors in my life, and in the past couple of weeks, I have come to realize that Ojar is not in this category, but is instead, a stress reliever. I still need the support of everyone here, be it directly or indirectly, through relevant divorce related questions or through humor and “off-topic” fun.
I find myself lurking quite often, and when I do, I hate feeling like I’m out of the loop and not caught up with everyone and how they’re doing. Although I think I am pretty much through with my divorce emotionally, I know that I will still encounter hard times. Even more so, I feel that I can help others here. One of the hardest things for me in the last couple of weeks has been reading threads and knowing I have something helpful to say, but because I hate admitting when I’m wrong, I couldn’t find it in me to just suck it up and come back.
I hope that when the time comes, that I will be able to leave, and I hope that I will be able to do it in good faith and with a satisfied conscious. I am at peace with myself and where I’m at in my life when I’m on Ojar. I miss the feeling of knowing that someone, somewhere is supporting me, even without knowing me, because they merely understand how it feels to have your heart broken. I generally hate being sappy, but I feel that there are certain people that I would like to publicly thank, because they have helped me immensely and deserve recognition.
BBH and Bubba: ya’ll are great. You are an inspiration to everyone here that love truly exists in the world. You have offered me wonderful advise on numerous occasions, and I can’t thank you enough.
Smiley: my big sister! You have helped me, both on Ojar and off, and without your insight into my problems, I would have zero perspective on my thoughts, feelings and actions.
Fre: my psychiatrist! I may never get a chance to pay up, so I’m hoping my thanks is enough!
Buyer: you always know how to make me laugh, you sick perverted freak!
Jillie and Sourpuss: looking back at my first posts, I noticed that ya’ll responded to each one. I am so grateful for your sincerity and generosity when I was going through such a difficult time in my life.
LgH: you made sure to IM me whenever I was having a bad day, even if you were having one yourself. You have got to be one of the most thoughtful people I’ve ever met, and I am so happy for you and Blue! You deserve some happiness! :)
Tarheel: last, but certainly not least. I didn’t think I could find love again, but I found it with you, much more quickly than I thought possible. I still don’t know exactly where it fits in my life or in my heart right now, and I hope that maybe we can figure that out :)
I’m sure that there are a ton of people I’ve left out, and I’m really sorry! Everyone here is just so great (god that sounds cheesy)! I don’t know what I’d do without you, well actually, yeah, I do. The last two weeks I’ve been totally freaking out about stuff that shouldn’t really matter. I’ve felt disconnected. This is getting to be really long, so I should probably cut it short! :P
If ya’ll will have me, I would like to come back. (Please!?) Big hugs and kisses to everybody! (which is huge for me, because I don’t like to be touched) :P
Lots of Love,
TH
Re: An Open Letter to Ojar (and I am SO sorry I rambled!) Lumpy: Like you need permission! ;D Welcome back TH!!
Re: An Open Letter to Ojar (and I am SO sorry I rambled!) sigkapgirl: Lumpy ~ MUAH! :-*
Oh, look at me, kissin' people I don't even know! ;)
Re: An Open Letter to Ojar (and I am SO sorry I rambled!) Bubba: [quote"> BBH and Bubba: ya’ll are great. You are an inspiration to everyone here that love truly exists in the world. You have offered me wonderful advise on numerous occasions, and I can’t thank you enough.[/quote">
What the heck? Why can't it be Bubba & BBH??? Was does she always COME first? HMMM??
Oh wait, I guess if she didn't she wouldn't at all.......hehehehee
On a more serious note - welcome back TH!!
Bubs
Re: An Open Letter to Ojar (and I am SO sorry I rambled!) freovir: [size=50pt"> WOOOOHOOOOO -- YOU'RE BACK!!!!!!!!!
AGAIN!!