Re: im so conflicted... tearsrunoneway: baby step today: don't call her, dont write her.
"What are you trying to accomplish by calling her?"
I don't want her back - I guess I want her to hurt like I do - or want her to regret what she has done - although Im pretty sure my calling is doing neither of these...I want her to deal with it alone like I am and not with someone else.It isnt fair but I can't change it. I hate being in this position. I keep feeling the desperate need to find someone quick to get back at her, which I know is completely unhealthy, but I dont feel like being healthy right now...
Re: im so conflicted... lilly10: Hi tears,
I know exactly how you feel. My ex who I was with for 6 years has treated me like garbage as well. It is the worst feeling that I have ever felt. I to wanted him to talk to me and treat me like a human being just for some form of closure. It did not happen and I have accepted that it wont. All you can do is be as stong as you can. I will say that working on my own life and future is what has helped me get through this. I still have my weak moments and want to call but I stop myself. I am no longer shaking from nerve shock and I have not cried in 4 days now so I guess I am getting better. Have you reached the angry stage yet?? You can PM if you want I think our situations have a lot in common.
Re: im so conflicted... Lumpy: Dear Tears,
I agree with BR. By calling her you're showing her that she still has a hold on you. In a way, I think it makes it easier for her to have a low opinion of you. You need to be strong. Cut off contact until you're not feeling so needy.
