Re: I'm a newbie...and heartbroken cyncyn_22: The really depressing thing about yesterday is that I was around my family. Everybody knew what was going on, but it seemed like everybody was reluctant to say anything.
Also, I guess I was scared to say anything, because everybody else was talking and watching the Cowboys and enjoying themselves and I guess I didn't want to put the focus on me and have my misery rub off on everybody else.
In short, I guess I felt like everybody was too busy to take time to sit down and talk to me about how I felt, or to give me a much-needed shoulder to cry on. I felt so alone despite the fact that I was around so many people that care about me. :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
Re: I'm a newbie...and heartbroken Debbie: It is good that he is saying this now instead of five years down the line when you have children. College should be done only because you want to. It is you how has invested all of your time and hard work. To give that up now would be foolish. There might be someone better for you or better yet he might return because he sees how strong you are without him.
Debbie
Re: I'm a newbie...and heartbroken cyncyn_22: And just what is all of this college junk going to do for me? Get me a $8/hr job instead of an $5.15/hr job? That seems to be the trend these days. A bunch of my friends have had a hard time getting decent-paying jobs, even after graduating from college. :-\
Well, if I do graduate from college, at least I can say that I toughed it out, I suppose.
But everything I do seems so pointless without him. Everything's meaningless. Everything I do has no meaning or purpose. It's like I'm just going through the motions right now, and that is such a demoralizing way to live. :-\
Re: I'm a newbie...and heartbroken cyncyn_22: Today would've been our 2nd anniversary. :'(
I am so miserable today. I can't wait to go to my next counseling session Wed., when I can splurge my feelings and cry all I want, because, to be honest, I'm sick of being strong. I'm sick of acting like everything's okay and honkey dorey. I just want to crawl into a fetal positon and suck my thumb for a while.
I'm glad I got that off my chest!
cyncyn_22
Re: I'm a newbie...and heartbroken AfterMath: Oh Sweety we all fall down. All the time. Thinkin' about you.
Suck away I say (Your thumb that is.)
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