He really messed up my head! skooz: Here I am, waiting for my "new interest" to pick me up for late lunch (I'm so hungry!) and getting very anxious about it since we're going to spend the whole afternoon together. I SO didn't want to be in this place again, but voilą... I miss the guy when he's not around and every little detail of attention from him makes me want to jump. Doesn't take much to make me feel this way and he's being pretty special. Just a couple of weeks ago I was telling myself to forget about men and look at me now... Eek!
Now I'm kinda freaking out about the whole dating thing and thinking really hard about ways to keep it cool and enjoy these last two weeks we have left before I fly away (probably that's what I'm the most afraid of). The thought about telling this guy to stop being so nice has crossed my mind in more than one occasion, but you can't make someone "not" like you, right? Then I get angry because I feel my STBX really played a number on me, messing up with my heart, making me so vulnerable. I blame him for this way I feel, as stupid as it sounds, I wouldn't be here right now if it wasn't for his being an ass. I was always capable of having a cool head about this thing and it's all gone now after the split.
Today, I despise his memory and I wish I never met him. Sucks to be so mixed up about everything after all this time. Can I cuss in here? Because I have nothing good to say about him right now, so I better sign off.
Re: He really messed up my head! alonewith2: I can understand completely with the part of wanting to make someone not like you! Is is because it's easier to deal with if they decide to just stop liking us? I'm not sure.
I don't have any good advice for you.....mainly because I always chose the wrong way in this category! lol
Re: He really messed up my head! missycristin: Fear of success is pretty normal, but your situation is a little different. Maybe you did get involved on purpose knowing that you were going to leave. That way you could ease yourself safely back into dating. It can't get too too serious, so you can't get too too hurt.
Dating on any level sucks though. I am not looking forward to it.
Re: He really messed up my head! getreal: Sounds like love to me....I“m new here...whats STBX? I“ve seen that here a few times.
Could it be your heart has no room for anyone else right now? The heart is funny that way.
TC
Re: He really messed up my head! skooz: STBX = Soon To Be Ex
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