How could you? ChrisJane: What happened to those two people that were so much in love? Everyone said that since you'd loved me since Jr. High it would last forever.
In the beginning things were so great. Then came the drinking, drugs, staying out all night, sometimes weeks at a time. Then the abuse began.
You made me believe all those years that it was my fault you hit me, choked me or threw me across the room. It was the only way you could find to make me listen and stand to reason. When I'd try to leave you'd grab our son knowing I wouldn't leave without him, therefore staying with you.
You know I knew about all the other women. Yet you always got mad at me for accusing you for things your weren't doing. You actually tried to turn it around by telling only those guilty of cheating accuse their mates of it. Even though there was no one else in my life, I stopped having a life outside of the home because I wasn't going to be accused of anything.
The day you called to ask me if I truly wanted the divorce she was there by your side. She expressed her happiness I was granting you a divorce. That was our son's 10th birthday - what a present.
Honestly I haven't lived the last 12 years of my life. I've always given things up to make your life easier. Until recently some hadn't seen a real smile on my face in who knows how long. Our marriage was based on your needs. Yet I didn't appreciate anything you did for me.
In a sense that is true. I didn't appreciate the beatings, the debts we couldn't afford, knowing you slept with most of the _ _ _ _ _ _ in the county.
The only good thing out of our marriage was our son. He deserves the best in life and you still want to take any hopes of that away. You can't live on $800 a week, yet you expect me to support him on less then that a month.
Until you quick producing kids you'll have to learn you have to support them at all cost. I'd think 6 children would be enough. You just got one off support and another on the way. With the back support you owe you'll be paying back support through your retirement pensions.
I will start my life over beginning March 8th. You will no longer control me. I will be happy again.
