From the top, to..here. wolly1234: Everyone keeps talking about how hard she will have it. She wasn't thinking about that when she was blowing our mortgage money.
8 months ago I had a family, a $130,000 house surrounded by woods, nice full sized blazer, a mustang, I hunted and fished with the boys. Went to dinner and yard sales with her. We did photography together of birds. Bird houses, baths and flower gardens. Kick butt jobs. I would have retired from there. SHangri-la.
Now I live in a 1 bedroom apartment in the middle of the desert with a $15 couch and a mattress on the floor. Lost my job.
And much to my dismay, had to apply for food stamps to keep from starving. And I am supposed to feel bad for her. I can't even get a picture of my stepkids.
But none the less, I do worry about her. And miss her. How confusing is that? WHen after all we went through htat I still love her, and wake up in the middle of the night, if I get to sleep at all, calling her name. Dream those stupid fairy tale dreams of our reunion. 100 different impossible variations that twist and turn. I love her dammit. Isn't that what I vowed to do? TO her, to myself, to our families, to god?
Re:From the top, to..here. wolly1234: SOme one please tell me this will go away. Someone please tell me that there is at least one woman left out there that takes marriage a little more seriously. WHat happened to the world? Where did it turn left when it should have turned right?
Re:From the top, to..here. Safetykc: I was EXACTLY where you where 6 months ago...
It will get better.....Hang in there Wooly...You will heal and there are good people out there and I know from many solid marriages around me that some people do take it seriously, but I know from the number of divorces, some dont and sometimes, it just doesnt work out between two people...even with love...there are no answers why...all you can do is work on being a good and strong person everyday and try to surround yourself with the same...
Hang in there...
Take care,
Safety
Re:From the top, to..here. wolly1234: testing new pic
Re:From the top, to..here. andyman8007: wolly i hear you. there isn't hour that i don't think about my stx or her son. so many dreams i had for us, gone like that!! i go to sleep and wake wondering is this the day that something positive will happen. it is like i had a whole different life, one that i will not be allowed to go back to. i am just going through the motions of life right now. hopefully with some time i can look back and not hurt so much. until then i just try to learn from this experience so that it won't repeat itself...
